You are the One you seek
This podcast aims to help listeners awaken to their own love, power, creativity, and innate divinity. The host shares his personal journey from Christianity to agnosticism, atheism, and ultimately to a spiritual path exploring near-death experiences and channelings. He discusses the concept of the veil of forgetfulness and the exploration of experiences rooted in the feeling of separation from the divine. The podcast emphasizes that we are all equally creative, empowered, and unified beings.
Episodes
Final Episode, June 5, 2026
I did this before about a year ago, then deleted it, and found a little more room to share. Now, during a time of great personal struggle and tumult, I have decided it would be better to end the podcast now, rather than make the diary of a man losing his excitement for life, and the excitement for the things he previously promoted with great joy in his heart. I am consistent only at inconsistency,
EP44: A journey with Cannabis! (happy 4/20)
I wanted to share, finally, my honest feelings about my history with Cannabis use. I want to offer some information, caution, and also destigmatizing of what this plant offers. From my first time trying it in high school to my dream job working from home for a Cannabis company for 3 years. I also ramble about a few other things loosely tied to Cannabis, as is my heathen custom. Enjoy!email: youhav
EP43: What we know is a drop, what we don't, an Ocean
**My comments about not respecting religions should be clarified. As an ex-Christian for 37 years, and after coming face to face with multiple SA criminals within the walls of the small churches I attended, many of their offenses against children, I developed a very low opinion of religious systems in general. The more I explored as I stepped out of faith in 2018, the more I realized just how trul
EP42: The Human Butterfly
Wanted to focus this episode on an idea that has resonated with me for a few years. This is the idea that we are like a caterpillar making the transition to butterfly, in a chrysalis phase. I didn't come up with the concept, obviously, or maybe I did? Maybe you and I did?! Besides the point.... Everything that was once structure, and known, is now goo, and dissolving under it's own weight, seeming
EP41: 2 Year Special! + Hopium in a time of despair/How to raise the planetary energy
It has been just a little over 2 years since I struck out with this little diary style podcast, exploring all kinds of new ideas and explorations after years spent in the stifling beliefs of Christianity. In this episode, I reflect back on what it has been like to traverse these last 2 years, and the daily challenge to bring more of the heart into a world that seems to be racing to the bottom. If
EP40: A season of reflection, a time of grieving and hope
So yeah, I made a hilarious mistake when I initially released this, as I rendered it in the speed I edit the episodes in. LOL!!!! I swear I didn't shapeshift into a chipmunk! Thanks for listening, and being patient with my silly behind.
EP39: A mini SOS + teaching Gamma breathing exercise
I'm back. I felt good about leaving things be when I signed off a few months ago, but felt compelled to share some new thoughts, ideas, and also a bit of a plea for help. My body and I have always been in a wrestling match, but lately, the pains and issues have begun to get the better of me. I am doing my best to stay positive, and to manifest the healing I need. Slow going, and am not too proud t
EP38: It's the end of the world as we know it, and I feel...tired.
Just a wee little update from me, reflecting on this current moment, and my place in it. I don't have a lot of answers, more questions and yearnings. Trying to stay in the moment, and not let outside forces impact you negatively is certainly the great challenge of the human experience. I have far from mastered it, that's for sure! Anyway, as usual, thanks for listening!*Also, I think I meant to sa
EP37: Conflict will never be solved by conflict/Letting go of guides, masters and gurus/personal side tangents and rabbit holes...
As we move into a time of escalation on SO MANY FRONTS, it is very hard to feel balanced and grounded. This episode is both a confession of my own struggle owning my place in this current moment, and also my hope still for a future that is far better than any of us could have imagined. As usual, I am trying to remind you the listener, that the focus always comes back to you and your power. I am ce
EP36: Faith really pisses me off! :)
Faith seems to be a theme that is inescapable for me, despite my logical brain constantly rejecting such an outlandish notion. I need PROOF DAMNIT! It seems my astrology confirms my need to have tangible proofs, to feel satisfied about my participation in what it is I am involved with. HOWEVER, Earth school is meant to turn that on it's head, or at least, for a time. Sounds like there have been ma
EP35: Dealing with the last several months, a house husband/father's perspective
I am sort of back! I have been really feeling things deeply and strongly in the last several months, as many of you have as well. It has been a time of listening, and absorbing. I still feel that as a human, I know so damn little, and laugh at my tiny grasp of not only human history, but the history of this planet. Tiny grasp might be too much credit. But a big wide smile comes over my face when I
EP34: 5 Basic Steps to Manifest Your Preferred Reality: Following Bashar's Formula + thoughts
In this episode I discuss "The Formula" as channeled by Bashar, through Darryl Anka. I read the 5 basic steps of the formula, and how even in the short time I have been working with it, I am finding it to be quite life changing.
If you are unfamiliar with Bashar, I highly recommend a deep dive. What can be off-putting for some at first, is the more abrasive, masculine energy that Bashar comes th
EP33: An update, and thoughts on UFO/UAPs & Bashar channelings . Also, a celebration of the absurdities of life.
I'm not dead! I have been a bit under the weather physically and otherwise, so just been laying low. I wanted to give an update with where I am at, and thoughts about UFO/UAP sightings that are happening worldwide, as well as the recent torrent of Bashar channelings I have been ingesting. I find that his style is super direct, to the point, and still very profound and loving. It seems to resonate
EP32: A deep dive with Pauline Edward: Author, Astrologer, music lover, and micro-green enthusiast!
Pauline Edward is a Canadian Author, Astrologer, lover of music, and lover of plants and people. She sits down with me and talks about a number of different topics, including her incredible new book "Gateway to a New World"
Pauline may be just a wee bit older than me, but she has a mind, heart and energy that keeps her in touch with her youthful energy of love and awe. I say this because she oft
EP31: The endless awe of who we really are. Hopeful musings on the state of the world, humanity, relationships and more.
As the 'outside' world begins to destabilize, and there are many scary possibilities as to what the future holds, I take a minute to ponder how we can respond to this, and live a love filled life regardless. It's easy to give into despair and become rather hopeless about the state of many things happening on the Earth right now, but we also always have a choice in what we focus on, and how we resp
EP30: "The Power of Your Own Consciousness" A Channeling of Jeshua through Pamela + Biography of Pamela and notes on Channeling
It's hard to believe this is the last reading I will be doing from The Jeshua Channelings, as the book is now complete! The good news is, Jeshua is still channeling away through Pamela and many others, so there is no need to stamp this book as a Bible, and say 'well that settles it!' Jeshua is just pointing us back to our own, dynamic selves, and the Christ energy/consciousness that is inherit in
EP29: "The Children of the New Era" A Channeling of Jeshua through Pamela
This episode is technically the last chapter in The Jeshua Channelings, but as I tend to do, things are slightly out of order, and there is still one more very short chapter left, that will conclude all material from this book.
This episode is about a spiritual awakening that has been under since the end of World War 2. Different waves of lightworker souls have been incarnating here to anchor the
EP28: "The Gatekeepers" A Channeling of Jeshua through Pamela
This chapter is really a great source of encouragement to me, as it lays out a bit about how we are meant to walk through the door of the New Era, by healing and releasing our past wounds and karmic struggles. There are only a few chapters left until the book is complete! You can find more from Pamela and Gerrit here: www.jeshua.net
You can email me @ youhavethekeys639@gmail.com
IG: @youaretheOne
EP27: "Illness and Health" A Channeling of Jeshua through Pamela
This episode is really for you if your personal health, or that of a loved one is something that consumes large portions of your time and attention. It is really easy to lose our perspectives and give in to fear when we have all of these weird, scary things that can happen to our body. Jeshua gives some great perspectives and insights as to how we can approach and deal with these issues. I hope yo
EP26: "Work, Money and Creativity" A Channeling of Jeshua through Pamela
We are getting down to the end of the book! Only a 4 more short chapters left, and then it's on to some interviews, rants, and other books that are really grabbing me! One of them is the one I was beyond honored to write a forward for "Gateway to a New World" By Pauline Edward. You can find it on her website: www.paulineedward.com
You can find more channelings from Pamela, as well as this book, a
EP25: "Sexuality and Spirituality" A Channeling of Jeshua through Pamela
It feels like this series of channelings never runs out of super relevant topics, and this one is clearly a significant energy we are still in the process of healing and harmonizing. Much is awry in the minds of the collective about sexuality, because there have been centuries of messages centered around shame and guilt, and a rejection of your natural human expression.
Jeshua does a great job ex
EP24: "Dealing With Emotions" A Channeling of Jeshua through Pamela
I can't imagine anyone alive who wouldn't resonate with the idea that emotions are a powerful force in our minute to minute lives. From what I have learned from NDEs, channelings, esoteric teachings etc. is that we always have a choice in what to do with our emotions, and that when we willfully encircle our unbalanced emotions with love, forgiveness and release, then we finally learn to heal, take
EP23: "Male and Female Energy" A Channeling of Jeshua through Pamela
This one was very profound to me when I first read it, as I had felt a distinct lack of good information pertaining to the balance of feminine and masculine energy, and certainly not from the Bible I grew up with. This channeling covers a lot of ground, and really contextualizes the conflict still at play in our world, between men and women, and how much room we still have to grow in our ability t
EP22: "Letting Go of Your Birth Family" A channeling of Jeshua through Pamela
I feel like I keep saying "This is one of my favorite chapters" but this one really has been important to me. I am very thankful for my birth family, but I have also been very thankful to learn loving, meaningful ways to detach my sense of self worth from their opinion of me, and to reframe my quest for validation from them, and really anyone else.
While I don't ever recommend the scorched earth
EP21: "Pitfalls on the way to becoming a Healer" A channeling from Jeshua through Pamela
Keeping the Jeshua train rolling again this week, with another chapter "Pitfalls on the way to becoming a Healer" from "The Jeshua Channelings" as received by Pamela Kribbe, with assistance from Gerrit Gielen.
This one, as most of them do, really resonates with me, because it describes a heartfelt desire in me to heal others, but I have only just begun to discover the first steps at doing this.
EP20: "Who is Jeshua?" A Channeling of Jeshua through Pamela
So I have read the first small section of this chapter, when I read 'Cosmic Birthing Pain' from 'The Jeshua Channelings' but I wanted to finally read the whole thing!
The views I express outside of the channelings are not endorsed or affiliated with Pamela and Gerrit, who have received and facilitated these channelings. My thoughts and views are 100% my own, but I do feel strongly about being ho
EP19: "Time, Multidimensionality, and your Light Self" Channeling of Jeshua through Pamela
I am reading from the final chapter in "The Lightworker Series" section of "The Jeshua Channelings" Only a few chapters left to read, but this section was the most profound to me, when initially coming across these channelings.
I have expressed before, but will say again, the definition Jeshua gives of a Lightworker, sounds eerily familiar to my own experiences in this life. He explains that a L
EP18: "Lightworker Part 1-3" A Channeling of Jeshua through Pamela *reupload
*This is an updated version, as I had some edit issues with the previous upload.
From the 'Lightworker series' portion of 'The Jeshua Channelings' I am reading the chapters 'Lightworker' parts 1-3. This is a bit of a longer one, but really illuminating, at least to me personally.
I have found that I really resonate and connect with the psychological profile of a Lightworker according to Jeshua,
EP17: "From Ego to Heart parts 3-4" A channeling of Jeshua through Pamela
In this episode, I am reading again from "The Jeshua Channelings" and am finishing the 4 chapter section of "The Lightworker Series' with "From Ego To Heart 3-4"
These final 2 chapters highlight what happens when we begin to, then fully release our ties to old, stale, ego energy. This material is incredibly energizing and exciting to me, and perfectly details what my heart has been longing for s
EP16: "From Ego to Heart part I-2" A channeling of Jeshua through Pamela
This episode is the next 2 chapters in "The Jeshua Channelings" from Pamela Kribbe and Gerrit Gielen: "From Ego to Heart I-II" This is from the larger "Lightworker Series" in the books, which contain the following chapters:
"The New Earth I-II"
"Lightworker I-III"
"From Ego to Heart I-IIII"
"Time, Multidimensionality, and your Light Self"
Next episode will be "From Ego to Heart III-IV"
If you w
EP15: "Lightworker part 1-3" A channeling of Jeshua through Pamela
From the 'Lightworker series' portion of 'The Jeshua Channelings' I am reading the chapters 'Lightworker' parts 1-3. This is a bit of a longer one, but really illuminating, at least to me personally.
I have found that I really resonate and connect with the psychological profile of a Lightworker according to Jeshua, but that doesn't mean I am one, in the sense Jeshua describes here. He also goes o
EP14: Confession Time: The spiritual journey is hard AF
It's been a pretty spiritually, emotionally and physically tumultuous stretch the last month plus, and I have been struggling to keep the podcast going on schedule. I am nothing if not painfully, brutally honest and transparent with how I feel about my journey through life, and I figured I would share that, because why not?
I am not looking for people to send me messages and tell me I am enough,
EP13: 'The New Earth' a channeling of Jeshua through Pamela
In case it's not clear by now, I have decided to make this an ongoing series. The Jeshua Channelings have been one of the most profound and inspiring aspects of my spiritual awakening, and I feel honored to be able to share it with you the listener.
This chapter is about the transition of Earth that is imminently at hand, or between 1950-2070 according to Jeshua. It discusses a concept that is g
EP12: 'Relationships in the New Era' a channeling of Jeshua through Pamela
In this episode, I read a chapter from 'The Jeshua Channelings' by Pamela Kribbe. The chapter is 'Relationships in the New Era' and it has been one of my absolute favorites in the whole book.
It really challenged my understanding of my marriage, and many other critical relationships in my life, as well as being able to start to approach the idea that I am truly the one I seek. That the divinity
EP11: Firefighter Bill Letson's profound NDE out of body experience!
In this episode, I have the utmost honor of talking with Bill Letson, who is a Southern California native, surfer, and career firefighter, now retired. Bill walks me through his NDE (near death experience) story when he briefly died back in the mid 90s, after a call to help someone with the flu.
Bill shares how much his experience parallels with DMT, or Ayahuasca, and how psychedelics may be a wi
EP10: The insatiable addiction to Victimhood
In this episode, I get into my journey through understanding the role of victimhood in my own life, and how it has functioned in my personal journey of self-discovery.
It has become a resounding theme of many of the texts I have been reading lately, that victimhood is the game of the ego, and the karmic wheel we get stuck on by continuously playing the role of victim, offender, and rescuer. Rins
EP09: She talks to dead people! Becky Austill-Clausen shares her profound journey!
Rebecca Austill-Clausen is an Occupational Therapist, Reiki Master, award-winning author, and international speaker. She had a Spiritual Transformative Experience in 1995 when she discovered the ability to communicate with her brother after he passed, even though she had no psychic or spiritual skills at the time. Becky struggled with how her spiritual awakening and eventual spiritual transformati
EP08: "You have to pick a side" and other logical fallacies.
It has become a rather common theme in my life as I discuss difficult topics with people, that I am often given the dictate: "You have to pick a side!" That has never sat very well with me, because there are far more choices than 2 out there in the world. The cycle of binary thinking, of right and wrong, or this side or that side, pigeon holes us into a very narrow focal point, that often misses t
EP07: Betty Guadagno shares her INCREDIBLE Spiritual and Kundalini awakening, and NDE experience.
Betty Guadagno's journey commenced amidst shadows of adversity, grappling with the weight of drug addiction, involvement in sex work, and the heartrending loss of her parents to suicide. However, a profound turning point emerged in March 2019 following a near-death like experience due to a drug overdose.
During this awakening, Betty found herself traversing the ethereal realm between life and ete
EP06: "Cosmic Birthing Pain" or the origin of your anger, pain & loneliness. A channeling of Jeshua through Pamela
In this episode, I am reading a chapter, and small snippet from "The Jeshua Channelings" as channeled through Pamela Kribbe, with the assistance of Gerrit Geilen. You can find the book & channelings at www.jeshua.net
I am focusing on the "Cosmic Birthing Pain" chapter in which Jeshua explains the core and origin of the pain, suffering, and deep loneliness we feel on this Earth, and the various wa
EP05: NDE of Dr. Mary Helen Hensley "You can't mess this thing up!"
In this very special episode, I have the honor of interviewing NDE Experiencer, Author, Speaker, Metaphysician, Chiropractor, and all around incredible person, Dr. Mary Helen Hensley. She is from Virgina originally, schooled in South Carolina, but has been in Ireland for the last 25 years, where she has her chiropractic and metaphysical healing practice. Mary shares bits of her NDE experience, as
EP04: A lighthearted exchange with Sean Bon Bon of The Bon Bon's Nook
This episode was an absolute treat to record, as I get to talk to my childhood friend Sean Bon Bon, of The Bon Bon's Nook podcast, Pure Love Chocolate, and Bon Bon's Nook Casava Tortilla mix, among MANY other things.
Sean and my brother Michael became good friends in High School, and I was fortunate enough to insert myself into their friendship, and forge my own relationship with Sean, which has
EP03: A tribute to my brother Mike, who ascended on Leap Day, 12 years ago.
I wanted to make a special episode, honoring the short, difficult, and inspiring life of my brother Michael. (he preferred Mike, or Myco, or MycoGonzo, or any number of other amusing aliases)
I talk about the difficulties we had in relating, especially due to some more neuro-divergent traits in both of us, and how it took many years to develop a very challenging, but ultimately great relationshi
EP02: An introduction to NDE (Near Death Experience)
The future of this show is having guests on to talk about their experiences, but before we have on folks who have had an NDE, I would like to provide a little context and information about my understandings of how it seems to work. Thankfully there are millions of people with first hand experience with OBE or NDE experiences, so the likelihood you know someone who has, is pretty decent.
I attemp
EP01: You are more than your physical body!
This is the first episode in the podcast, and I just wanted to give you some background story on how I arrived at this current place of understanding. I have been enamored with Near Death Experience stories, both from strangers and friends, and have been immersed in Yeshua and Ra Channelings, as well as A Course In Miracles. I would still consider myself somewhat of an atheist, but within that, al
