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Can I Say Something?

CISS LLC 46 Episodes Oct 13, 2026

A conversational podcast hosted by twenty-somethings Madeline Ford and Maalvika Bhat. The two friends discuss love, almost-love, work, identity, self-talk, anxiety, and friendships. They bring a sleepover-like energy to heavy topics, mixing questions and laughter. It is a space for figuring things out together, with maybe someday answers.

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FMK: swiftologist, melodrew, and cleveland! Oct 13, 2026 00:56:03 sorry there's no video for this episode (#cisscurse is back) but we chat about big brother, taylor swift's encore, internet hate, ragebait, and perverted thoughts. enjoy xoxo

the hidden cost of oversharing as an influencer Sep 28, 2026 00:52:14 this is really vulnerable try to be nice and give grace. and if you think we sound mean, please see our hearts. they are big and juicy. promise

battle of the taydaughters (phoebe bridgers vs. olivia rodrigo) Sep 21, 2026 00:43:20 dw guys its clickbait we aren't actually pitting women against each other. but we do discuss the new albums (and also relationship anxiety)

TTPD IS AGING LIKE FINE WINE May 4, 2026 01:18:12 it's been two years since taylor swift dropped the tortured poets department and cracked our hearts wide open. join the ciss cueens in revisiting her magnum opus, breaking down the best lyrics, debating tracklist order, and more <3follow the pod on instagram: www.instagram.com/cisspod/follow the pod on tiktok: www.tiktok.com/@cisspodfollow madeline: www.instagram.com/madelineaford/follow ma

WHAT HAPPENED AFTER THE ROBBY HOFFMAN SHOW Mar 10, 2026 00:48:35 madeline shares her experience with robby hoffman, maal can't stop bringing up summer house, and the most embarrassing story ever told on the pod.....follow the pod on instagram: www.instagram.com/cisspod/follow the pod on tiktok: www.tiktok.com/@cisspodfollow madeline: www.instagram.com/madelineaford/follow maalvika: www.instagram.com/maalvikabhat/

reacting to the ANTM documentary as a model Feb 23, 2026 01:14:43 your ciss cueens are back with an update on maal's curse, the corrupted sd card, & oral hygiene. also a recap on the America's Next Top Model documentary from madeline. follow the pod on instagram: www.instagram.com/cisspod/follow the pod on tiktok: www.tiktok.com/@cisspodfollow madeline: www.instagram.com/madelineaford/follow maalvika: www.instagram.com/maalvikabhat/

STARTING MY SATURN RETURN ON A CURSED FRIDAY THE 13TH Feb 16, 2026 00:55:56 your ciss cueens are back to recount a very cursed week, ending in a cursed friday the thirteenth. also madeline's saturn has returned and there is a shift in the air...follow the pod on instagram: www.instagram.com/cisspod/follow the pod on tiktok: www.tiktok.com/@cisspodfollow madeline: www.instagram.com/madelineaford/follow maalvika: www.instagram.com/maalvikabhat/

everything that went wrong on our trip to spain! Nov 3, 2025 01:35:31 the drought is over!!!!! your ciss cueens went on their FIRST international trip together and brought back so many stories. enjoy our giggles and some easter eggs for those who watch the whole thing ;D love you!!!follow the pod on instagram: www.instagram.com/cisspod/follow the pod on tiktok: www.tiktok.com/@cisspodfollow madeline: www.instagram.com/madelineaford/follow maalvika: www.instagram.com

MODELING RUINED MY CONFIDENCE Jul 21, 2025 01:01:06 your ciss cueens discuss madeline's recent modeling fiasco, improv class, and what it means to cultivate true confidence. also, for the first time in cisstory (ciss history), we have bloopers. you'll need your video on for it.JOIN CISSCORD ON DISCORD! https://discord.com/invite/NgT6sPFzs4follow the pod on instagram: www.instagram.com/cisspod/follow the pod on tiktok: www.tiktok.com/@cisspo

Q&A: motherhood, books, improv classes, & getting a PhD Jul 7, 2025 01:06:37 your ciss cueens are finally back after the long weekend with the q&a episode you've been asking for! this week, we talk about the vulnerable idea of motherhood – the yearning, the uncertainty, the cultural pressure, and what it means to imagine ourselves as future parents. madeline opens up about her journey through improv, acting, and writing classes, sharing the magic of finding your vo

are you performing queerness? Jun 23, 2025 00:37:29 happy pride, cissers!!!!!!!! 🏳️‍🌈 in this very special episode, your ciss cueens chat about hinge's new report on how lgbtqia+ daters are embracing label-fluid dating and prioritizing authentic connection over rigid categories. #hingepartnercheck out the Hinge LGBTQIA+ 2025 date report here:http://hin.ge/cisspod_DATEjoin cisscord on discord! https://discord.com/invite/NgT6sPFzs4follow the pod

bring back kink shaming Jun 16, 2025 01:00:53 your ciss cueens tell the story of the humiliation that ensued at their first cursed workout class together, unpack sabrina carpenter's controversial album cover, madeline opens up about her ongoing EMDR therapy experience and maal comes out as capital n Neurotic.JOIN CISSCORD ON DISCORD! https://discord.com/invite/NgT6sPFzs4follow the pod on instagram: www.instagram.com/cisspod/follow the pod

couples therapy: dreamers vs. doers, BPD, & toxic attachment styles Jun 9, 2025 00:57:21 this week your ciss cueens get suuuuper vulnerable and therapize themselves! they discuss attachment styles, madeline explains bpd, and maal has a revelation about dreamers vs. doers JOIN CISSCORD ON DISCORD! https://discord.gg/NgT6sPFzs4follow the pod on instagram: www.instagram.com/cisspod/follow the pod on tiktok: www.tiktok.com/@cisspodfollow madeline: www.instagram.com/madelineaford/follow ma

worrying about being a good person is making you a bad person! May 26, 2025 00:55:05 your ciss cueens return with a silly Q&A episode. this time, they discuss the irony of overthinking and how it can lead us astray. how obsessing over goodness can actually distance us from connection and action, conflict resolution strategies, how maal was called out for being bad at apologizing, and finding your footing when everything feels unstable.please leave us 5 stars & follow us:⁠p

“i regret coming out” & other vulnerable thoughts May 12, 2025 00:39:49 your ciss cueens talk about madeline's recent cancellation, the straight allegations, post big-event depression, & "everywhere i go, i bring myself" :") atingplease leave us 5 stars & follow us:⁠podcast instagram: @cisspod⁠⁠podcast youtube: @cisspod⁠⁠madeline's instagram: @madelineaford⁠⁠maalvika's instagram: @maalvikabhat⁠

controversial opinions on solo traveling, jojo siwa & cheating May 5, 2025 01:02:54 ciss cueens are here in a BONUS eppy (literally right after we said we were going bi-weekly, lol) to tell you one of madeline's funniest stories ever, maal's recent trip to japan, to discuss the controversy around jojo siwa and cheatingplease leave us 5 stars & follow us:⁠podcast instagram: @cisspod⁠⁠podcast youtube: @cisspod⁠⁠madeline's instagram: @madelineaford⁠⁠maalvika's in

the world's most asymmetrical face!?!?!? Apr 27, 2025 00:54:33 your ciss cueens gab and giggle about struggling with keeping your individuality and creative passions alive while in a relationship, how weird couples prank channels are, career uncertainty, embarassment, and our second favorite ginger: ed sheeran.please leave us 5 stars & follow us:⁠podcast instagram: @cisspod⁠⁠podcast youtube: @cisspod⁠⁠madeline's instagram: @madelineaford⁠⁠maalvika's insta

what no one wants to admit about bikini bodies Apr 14, 2025 00:54:38 your ciss cueens are back after a little spring break discussing maal's recent trip to mexico, body insecurities, & madeline's EMBARASSING date story. please leave us 5 stars & follow us:⁠podcast instagram: @cisspod⁠⁠podcast youtube: @cisspod⁠⁠madeline's instagram: @madelineaford⁠⁠maalvika's instagram: @maalvikabhat⁠

how to know if you're in the right relationship, coming out to your friends, & other advice Mar 24, 2025 00:54:15 the ciss cueens respond to your DMs about overwhelming feelings of hopelessness, recognizing subtle forms of emotional manipulation like negging in relationships, and madeline shares her personal journey of coming out to her friends after a question about homophobic 'friends'.please leave us 5 stars & follow us:⁠podcast instagram: @cisspod⁠⁠podcast youtube: @cisspod⁠⁠madeline's ins

how to avoid the biggest friendship mistakes Mar 17, 2025 00:45:01 there are rules for dating, but friendship is both special and fragile precisely because no one tells you how to succeed at it. your ciss cueens break down the unspoken codes of female friendship: what works, what hurts, and what no one admits! please leave us 5 stars & follow us:podcast instagram: @cisspodpodcast youtube: @cisspodmadeline's instagram: @madelineafordmaalvika's instagram: @maal

how to make friends as an adult! Mar 10, 2025 00:55:17 your ciss cueens are back with the most requested episode of all time!!!please leave us 5 stars & follow us:podcast instagram: @cisspodpodcast youtube: @cisspodmadeline's instagram: @madelineafordmaalvika's instagram: @maalvikabhat

explaining & analyzing the best book ever: why fish don't exist (full breakdown) Mar 3, 2025 00:59:57 CISSERS, WELCOME TO BFF BOOK CLUB. no reading required, but warning: you might end up wanting to read it anyway 📚✨the ciss cueens discuss maal's favorite book of all time: why fish don't exist by lulu miller. we break down this genre-bending masterpiece that's part biography, part memoir, and part scientific adventure. the book won the 2020 kirkus prize for nonfiction and was named one

"i never thought my best friend would ghost me..." Feb 24, 2025 00:51:48 the ciss cueens answer cisser cuestions, conundrums, crises, and catastrophes! long term situationships, being perceived in a way you dont see yourself, traumatic friend breakups, choosing roommates, making calculated risks, how to choose your first job out of college, and more.please like, comment, & share the pod with your friends. word of mouth is huge!podcast instagram: @cisspodpodcast you

reviewing 5 books in 50 minutes Feb 17, 2025 00:58:59 your ciss cueens review the following 📚 my body by emily ratajkowski – a bestselling essay collection that dives into beauty, power, and what it means to be seen as a woman. it got a lot of buzz when it came out in 2021, topping the new york times bestseller list, and really shifted how people viewed emrata. some controversial takes here, beware. the seven husbands of evelyn hugo by taylor jenkin

which influencers deserve hate? Feb 10, 2025 00:53:56 an all-over-the-place episode about the boy causing problems in our life, the most hated influencers, jojo siwa ;D, madeline's reddit historyplease leave us 5 stars & follow us:podcast instagram: @cisspodpodcast youtube: @cisspodmadeline's instagram: @madelineafordmaalvika's instagram: @maalvikabhat

we watched Promising Young Woman so you don't have to Feb 3, 2025 01:29:27 TW: SA, trauma. spoilers galore! follow us on letterboxd! @madelineaford & @maalvika in this episode, we take a deep dive into Promising Young Woman (2020), Emerald Fennell’s sharp, unsettling thriller that redefines the revenge genre. with a powerhouse performance by Carey Mulligan, the film tackles complex themes of justice, accountability, and the illusions of safety. we go scene-by-scene,

what we hate about each other Jan 27, 2025 00:55:25 your ciss cueens have a cosmo in hand & dish on what it's been like living together & being around each other 24/7 please like, comment, & share the pod with your friends. word of mouth is huge! also if you enjoy this pod at all, leave us 5 stars & follow us: podcast instagram: @cisspod podcast youtube: @cisspod madeline's instagram: @madelineaford maalvika's instagra

WE WATCHED 7 MOVIES IN 7 DAYS Jan 20, 2025 01:00:30 follow us on letterboxd! @madelineaford & @maalvika wicked (music and lyrics by stephen schwartz, book by winnie holzman, dir. by jon m. chu): the beloved musical. have you heard of it? uptown girls (written by julia dahl, mo ogrodnik, and leslie dixon, dir. by boaz yakin): a whimsical story about a carefree heiress (brittany murphy) and a precocious child (dakota fanning) learning from each

we watched The Substance so you don't have to Jan 13, 2025 01:27:00 disclaimer: this video is FULL OF SPOILERS. also, madeline’s audio is weak at the start but WE PROMISE IT GETS BETTER. the substance is a 2024 body horror film written, directed, co-edited, and co-produced by coralie fargeat. it’s about a fading celebrity, elisabeth sparkle (played by demi moore), who gets fired by her producer (dennis quaid) for basically aging. then she decides to use this blac

our wildest childhood stories Jan 6, 2025 00:51:35 your ciss cueens are BACK for 2025! this time, discussing weird field trips, sneaking out, crushes, and childhood friendship breakups. one of our favorite episodes yet... loads & loads of giggling :) please leave us 5 stars & follow us: podcast instagram: @cisspod podcast youtube: @cisspod madeline's instagram: @madelineaford maalvika's instagram: @maalvikabhat

"how i overcame bipolar 2 and severe depression" Dec 24, 2024 01:03:49 tw: mental illness in this deeply personal video, madeline opens up about her mental health journey, sharing her struggles and moments of darkness with honesty and vulnerability. to anyone who feels like there's no hope: please know it can and will get better. you are not alone, and there is help available. 💛 please leave us 5 stars & follow us: podcast instagram: @cisspod podcast youtube: @c

99% vanilla, being "queer enough" & the male ego (q+a episode) Dec 16, 2024 00:48:08 the ciss cueens answer your questions on identity, breakups, and dating challenges. tangents include vanilla-shaming and bad ex stories! please leave us 5 stars & follow us: podcast instagram: @cisspod podcast youtube: @cisspod madeline's instagram: @madelineaford maalvika's instagram: @maalvikabhat

"my first time with a woman" (storytime) Dec 9, 2024 00:43:28 madeline recounts her first time with a woman -- from a dm & to a plane ride 🤣 please leave us 5 stars & follow us: podcast instagram: @cisspod podcast youtube: @cisspod madeline's instagram: @madelineaford maalvika's instagram: @maalvikabhat

taylor swift & queerbaiting: the truth? (a debate) Dec 2, 2024 00:46:03 hello cissers! here we have part TWO of your ciss cueens (a gaylor & a hetlor) diving into the internet’s Gaylor theories, kaylor vs. swiftgron, the matty healy of it all, and unpacking lyrical analyses. please leave us 5 stars & follow us: podcast instagram: @cisspod podcast youtube: @cisspod madeline's instagram: @madelineaford maalvika's instagram: @maalvikabhat

gaylor is a cult… here's how i escaped Nov 26, 2024 00:56:45 your ciss cueens (a gaylor & a hetlor) take a deep dive into the internet’s Gaylor theories, unpack lyrical analyses, discuss queer projection, and reflect on their personal timelines of discovering and connecting with Taylor Swift’s music. and this is just part 1 btw! stay tuned! please leave us 5 stars and follow us: podcast instagram: @cisspod podcast youtube: @cisspod madeline's instagram

i was publicly HUMILIATED (storytime) Nov 18, 2024 00:36:48 your ciss cueens dive into maalvika's musical trauma, talk hangxiety, dry heaving at your crushes house, one direction boyfriends, and daddy huberman. they're being silly today. podcast instagram: @cisspod podcast youtube: @cisspod madeline's instagram: @madelineaford maalvika's instagram: @maalvikabhat

...and they were roommates! (q+a episode) Nov 4, 2024 00:41:45 the ciss cueens answer your dm's and questions! from deciphering whether your feelings are romantic or just a platonic crush, to reflections on aging, the pros and cons of living solo vs. with roommates, and so much more <3 please leave us 5 stars and follow us: podcast instagram: @cisspod podcast youtube: @cisspod madeline's instagram: @madelineaford maalvika's instagram: @maalvikabhat

i was a teenage model… and it was a nightmare Oct 28, 2024 01:08:33 madeline recounts how she got signed, shares juicy details from her teen modeling days, and pulls back the curtain on the gritty side of glitz and glamour. tw: body stuff & grooming please leave us 5 stars and follow us: podcast instagram: @cisspod podcast youtube: @cisspod madeline's instagram: @madelineaford maalvika's instagram: @maalvikabhat

listen to this if you're afraid to be seen trying Oct 21, 2024 00:39:13 your ciss cueens discuss their recent fight, why sibling order matters, and discuss the terrifying but empowering process of pushing past fear to bring their ideas to life :') this one is truly for the eldest daughters, mirrorballs, and not chill girls <3 please leave us 5 stars and follow us: podcast instagram: @cisspod podcast youtube: @cisspod madeline's instagram: @madelineaford maal

am i pretty enough to be in your life? Oct 14, 2024 00:43:11 your ciss cueens dissect a weird text madeline received at 2am, talk gender roles in gay dating, and maalvika shares a deep insecurity. as always, leave comments, reviews, and tag us in your stories listening!!! we love to see you :) please leave us 5 stars and follow us: podcast instagram: @cisspod podcast youtube: @cisspod madeline's instagram: @madelineaford maalvika's instagram: @maalvi

Charlotte York is a closet case, pink eye, the best head, & toots Oct 7, 2024 00:29:18 your ciss cueens haven't laughed this hard in a LONG time. they sit down with a glass of wine to give you some sex and the city hot takes, madeline recalls her head trauma and butt-to-eye disease, and maalvika spills the beans on toots... it's a wild ride. as always, leave comments, reviews, and tag us in your stories listening!!! we love to see you :) please leave us 5 stars and follow us: pod

our experiences with jealousy Sep 30, 2024 00:42:08 your ciss cueens divulge their ugly feelings on shame, jealousy, online comparison, and parasocial relationships with your partners ex. plus the song that changed madeline’s life and the shocking influencers she has shared an ex with. note: in this episode and prior episode description, we use the term “eskimo sisters," and we've since learned about its offensive history, especially in the cont

the truth about a 12 year age gap Sep 23, 2024 00:56:05 madeline gets vulnerable and recounts her most traumatizing relationship with an older man. follow us: podcast instagram: @cisspod podcast youtube: @cisspod madeline's instagram: @madelineaford maalvika's instagram: @maalvikabhat

i dated 9 girls in july (storytime) Sep 16, 2024 00:43:47 part 2 of madeline’s summer of s*x and partying!!! the ciss cueens talk about the first time madeline got ghosted, revisit a drunk post-date voice memo, and expose who won her heart 👀 make your guess before you find out! follow us: podcast instagram: @cisspod podcast youtube: @cisspod madeline's instagram: @madelineaford maalvika's instagram: @maalvikabhat

madeline's summer of s*x and partying!!! Sep 9, 2024 00:41:46 YOU KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS!!! your ciss cueens recap MSoS&P. they cover stories from every date and every girl. now the question remains... who's the winner? follow us: podcast instagram: @cisspod podcast youtube: @cisspod madeline's instagram: @madelineaford maalvika's instagram: @maalvikabhat

B!TCHES LOVE NUANCE Sep 2, 2024 00:36:32 the ciss cueens are laughinggg in the ciss castle today!!! they talk dress codes, code switching, girl math, and deepfakes. follow us: podcast instagram: @cisspod podcast youtube: @cisspod madeline's instagram: @madelineaford maalvika's instagram: @maalvikabhat

how to know yourself Aug 26, 2024 00:51:32 we talk rejection, values, and our big plans for the ciss castle (see also: ciss cingdom). disclaimer: we realized after filming that our mics weren’t plugged in properly! Theo is not the most reliable producer, but we couldn’t recreate this conversation if we tried, so try your best to enjoy anyway!! follow us: podcast instagram: @cisspod podcast youtube: @cisspod madeline's instagram:

our love story!?!? Aug 22, 2024 00:54:43 the girls recount how they met, talk pod ideas that almost made the cut, evolving attitudes towards men, and the doom and gloom of summer situationships (heyyy siri can you play august by taylor swift)

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