The 10 Ninety Podcast
Mason Sawyer, a former basketball player from Utah, shares his personal story of resilience after a tragic loss. He discusses his family life, his basketball career, and the devastating event that changed his life forever. The podcast focuses on overcoming adversity and finding strength in difficult times.
Episodes
#210 - Michelle Rivera
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason sits down with Michelle Rivera, a mother from Lowell, Massachusetts, who shares the story of losing her 16-year-old son Louis to appendicitis complications in 2009. She opens up about her journey through guilt, anger, and poor coping mechanisms, ultimately finding healing through faith and prayer. The conversation explores the difference between happi
#209 - Madi Sorenson
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Maddi Sorenson, whose fiancé, Trent, died just six weeks into her pregnancy. He was found in his trailer with Metallica's "One" playing on repeat, and Maddie is still left with a question she may never be able to answer: was it an accident, or did he take his own life? Maddi shares what came after: being left out of Trent's obituary, being
#208 - Matt Smyth
In this episode of the 10 Ninety Podcast Mason sits down with Matt Smyth to share the heartbreaking story of losing his wife Carli and their unborn son Liam to a hidden condition called pulmonary arterial hypertension. Matt opens up about his journey from high school sweethearts to sudden widower, the loneliness of grief, and how he's choosing to live with purpose—honoring Carli through his podcas
#206 - David Ferrugio
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason sits down with David Ferrugio, host of the Dead Talks podcast. David was just twelve when his father was killed on 9/11 in the North Tower at Cantor Fitzgerald. They discuss the last memory shared with his dad—a Yankees game two days before—the unique weight of grieving a loss constantly replayed globally, and how watching 9/11 footage became an accid
#207 - Jerry Glover
In this episode of the 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Jerry Glover, a grieving father who lost his 14-year-old son Dexton to what he believes was an accidental suicide. Jerry opens up about the guilt, anger, and overwhelming weight of losing a child, the difficulty of navigating family dynamics after tragedy, and why men need to break the silence around grief. He shares the story of the m
#205 - Chelsea Blackledge
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason sits down with Chelsea Blackledge. Chelsea opens up about the loss of her father, Arthur Francis Saunders, to suicide on January 14, 2024 — her birthday. Chelsea shares the story of their complicated relationship, the boundaries she set after a painful text, and the six years of silence that preceded his death. She speaks candidly about grief, guilt,
#204 - Samantha Seifert
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason sits down with Samantha Seifert. Samantha recounts the tragic loss of her one-year-old son Roman, who was accidentally ran over by her sister in the family driveway. She opens up about the unimaginable grief, her journey through forgiveness, how her mother's prior suicide unexpectedly gave her tools to survive, and the complicated reality of rebuildi
#203 - Caitlin Eggertz
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason sits down with Caitlin Eggertz, who shares the heartbreaking story of losing her college boyfriend, Matthew Hearn, in a fatal rock climbing accident in 2017. Caitlyn opens up about witnessing the tragedy firsthand, the survivor's guilt that followed, and how grief pushed her into a six-year battle with alcoholism. She reflects on her journey to sobrie
#202 - Chandra Roberson
In this episode with The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason sits down with Chandra Roberson, a licensed mental health counselor who has faced extraordinary loss — losing her mother at 14, her first husband Brad to cancer, and most recently her second husband Conrad to a sudden stroke in 2023. Chandra opens up about navigating complicated grief, blended family challenges, the impact of CTE from Conrad's footb
#201 - Stephanie Johnson
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason sits down with Stephanie Johnson, a mother of six from Arizona navigating two devastating realities at once. In October 2025, she lost her brother Loren to a drug overdose. Weeks later, her four-year-old son Nikolai was diagnosed with Hunter Syndrome — a rare genetic disorder affecting roughly 1 in 1 million male births that causes progressive neurolo
#200 - Joshua Legg
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Joshua Legg. What starts as a fun deep dive into Wolverine, X-Men, and the Marvel universe quickly becomes something much more profound. Joshua opens up about his younger brother Jake, who struggled with bipolar disorder and took his own life in June 2019. Joshua shares how collecting Marvel cards became one way of staying connected to
#199 - Faith Sawyer
It was so great having my niece Faith on to talk about her story. It's weird how the same tragedy in our family hits everyone a little differently. I can't really imagine what it's like to lose my dad and my brother when I was 16, as well as my aunt, and two cousins. As the uncle, I would like to be a good example but I have always been impressed with Faith and Ran's resiliency. I just kind of ch
#198 - Kim Sanford
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason Sawyer sits down with Kim Sanford — a competitive breakaway roper, former addict, and grief advocate. Kim shares the story of TJ Larson, her partner of seven years who battled meth addiction and stage four cancer before dying in a confrontation with police. She reflects on surviving profound loss, navigating grief over 11 years, and how amor fati — l
#197 - Connie Raschke
In this episode of the 10 Ninety podcast, Connie Raschke shares the heartbreaking and inspiring story of her husband, Chris Raschke — a passionate land speed racer, dedicated ARP employee, and beloved father and grandfather from Ventura, California. Chris spent years as a crew member for the legendary Speed Demon race team before stepping into the driver's seat himself, ultimately earning the rare
#196 - Derek Wayman
In this episode of the 10 Niney Podcast, host Mason sits down with Derek Wayman. Derek opens up about growing up as the youngest sibling to his brother Robert, who lived with severe cerebral palsy for 24 years before passing away in 2013. Derek shares raw, honest reflections on grief, guilt, childhood trauma, depression, and suicidal ideation — while also finding humor, hope, and hard-won wisdom i
#195 - Kamisha Allen and Brie Ocea
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Kamisha Allen and Brie Osha. Kamisha lost her son J'Wan 12 years ago at the Salt River in Phoenix, Arizona. Brie lost her two-year-old son Romeo to a drowning accident at an apartment complex in Tracy, California. Both of them know a grief most people around them will never understand. Kamisha talks about the fog that came over her, th
#194 - Kamisha Allen
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Kamisha Allen, a Phoenix, Arizona mother and founder of the HP Foundation — and the mom of J'Wan, a 21-year-old son she lost to a drowning accident 12 years ago. J'Wan was a football player, a scholar, a Harry Potter reader, and the person who changed everything about who Kamisha was. He was family-first, a jokester, and the reason she
#193 - Matt Meo
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Matt Meo, a Sacramento-area father and the dad of Landon — a 10-year-old boy who died of brain cancer in December 2022. Landon was funny, kind to everyone, and relentlessly trash-talked his dad. He went commando to his MRI, called out nurses who were moving too slow, had a signature move with his Pokemon cards, and called himself the K
#192 - Katy Lee
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Katy Lee, a St. George native and one of six siblings — five girls, one boy. That boy was her brother Brandon. Brandon was 46 when he died from COVID in 2021. He was sarcastic, hilarious, and hard to love in all the best ways. He watched Maids in a hospital bed, made smashed potatoes from TikTok recipes, and had a one-liner for everyth
#190 - Kathi Lyman-Richmond
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Kathi Lyman-Richmond to talk about her son Logan — an 18-year-old who loved GEZ, tattoos, hot tea, long drives, and making everyone around him feel like they mattered. From the moment Logan was born premature at 26.5 weeks — on Kathi's own birthday — she carried a feeling she could never shake: that she would lose him young, in a car
#191 - Matt Richmond
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Matt Richmond — stepfather, family man, and the guy who taught Logan Lyman how to shave, skateboard, snowboard, and bodyboard in five-foot Hawaiian surf. Matt came into Logan's life when he was eight years old. No pressure, no agenda — just chips in the truck, four-wheeling at the lake, and doing "guy" stuff together. What followed w
#189 - Keshia Sawyer
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with his sister-in-law Keshia Sawyer. This episode is dedicated to Franki, Riggins, Rider, Race, and Kortni, the family members they lost in a devastating car accident four and a half years ago. Keshia has been in the thick of it ever since the accident. Learning how to parent Ran and Faith through unimaginable loss and carrying the wei
#188 - Ryan Garner
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Ryan Garner. This episode is dedicated to his and Denise's first pup, Albus. Ryan and Denise had to say goodbye to Albus in October of 2025. Ryan helps Mason with production, social media, and the odds and ends of The 10 Ninety Foundation. He spends hours editing episodes about grief, loss, and survival. He talks about what it's like
#187 - Chris Craven and Jessica McInnes
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with two parents whose lives were forever changed by the loss of their children — and who found an unexpected connection through that shared grief. Chris Craven lost her son Wyatt just days before his sixth birthday after a seven-month fight with AML, a rare and aggressive blood cancer. Jessica McInnes lost her 15-year-old son Race in just
#186 - Jessica Roehm Mays
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Jessica Mays. Jessica lost her husband Jodi and four-year-old son Jace on November 20, 2014. Jessica's husband Jodi suffered a traumatic brain injury in an oil field accident in 2010, leaving him fully disabled and prone to daily blackout episodes. Jessica became his full-time caregiver, working to carry their benefits while raising t
#185 - Hailey Steck
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Hailey Steck, a St. George resident and mother of five, to talk about one of the most unimaginable losses a parent can face—and what it takes to keep going. Hailey shares the story of her daughter Cammie, who passed away on April 15, 2021 at just nine years old in a tragic accident at home. Cammie—full of personality, known for telling
#184 - Catie Hockenbury Part 2
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits back down with Catie Hockenbury for part two of their conversation about unimaginable loss—and the resilience it took to keep going. Picking up where they left off, Catie goes deeper into the losses that have defined her life. Her daughter Maya was stillborn in 2016 after a traumatic delivery in which Catie's own life hung in the balance. Her so
#183 - Catie Hockenbury Episode 1
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Catie Hockenbury about unimaginable loss—and the resilience it took to keep going. Catie's life has been shaped by profound grief. Her daughter Maya died during childbirth in 2016 after a catastrophic placental abruption. Her son Oliver passed away from SUID at just 9 months old in 2023. And years earlier, Connor, the father of her first c
#182 - Samie Hardman and Brittney Obray
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Samie Hardman and Brittney Obray—two mothers whose sons died by suicide in 2022, just months apart. Samie's son, Drayke, was 12 years old—an old soul obsessed with basketball and the Utah Jazz who wore mismatched socks and loved with his whole being. After enduring relentless bullying that triggered severe anxiety, Drake came home from
#181 - The Grief Worm
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason reads a book written by his Mom, KayCee Sawyer. The book was inspired by a chapter in the book "Bearing The Unbearable" written by Joanne Cacciatore. You are not alone. Grief is a journey that we didn't ask for. It is a dark, slow, and deliberate process. This book mirrors the grief journey: some days contracting inward for survival, other days t
#180 - Katlyn Hood
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Katlyn Hood to talk about losing her son, William Andrew Hood, who passed away peacefully in his sleep on November 16, 2021, at just six months and one day old. William was born three weeks early on May 15, 2021, after Katlyn and her husband Andrew went through a year of fertility treatments to become parents. He was a calm, happy baby
#179 - Tiffany Callahan
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Tiffany Callahan to talk about losing her mom, Laura Lee Cloud Steiner, who died unexpectedly on January 22, 2023, at 56 years old. Laura was a billing director at the University of Utah's mental health institute for more than 20 years and a CASA volunteer. She became a mother at 17, survived an abusive marriage, and divorced in 2015.
#178 - Brooke Pando
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Brooke Pando for her second appearance on the show. Brooke is the mother of London "Lundy" Pando, who lives with Ehlers-Danlos syndrome type 6A—a degenerative condition that leaves her body unable to support her muscles and bones, making every day uncertain. London, now 13, survived a massive stroke in utero at 34 weeks that liquefied
#177 - Pieter Kort
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Pieter Kort from Belleville, Ontario, Canada. Pieter lost two of his daughters—Madeleine "Maddie" Kort (13) and Joni Kort (10)—in a March 2022 rear end collision with a 70,000-pound cement truck while on vacation in Florida. Pieter shares what he remembers from the day of the crash, the extent of his family's injuries, and the unimagin
#176 - Ben Moore
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Ben Moore about loss, resilience, and what it means to build something meaningful. They discuss losing Wayne Ott, Ben's right-hand man and close friend who died suddenly while Ben was at Lake Powell, and how just weeks later, Mason's own family was killed in a car accident. Ben shares what it was like getting that late-night call about Mas
#175 - Matt Blanchard and Brad Coleman
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Brad Coleman and Matt Blanchard—two friends and spinal cord injury survivors—about the life-altering moments that put them in wheelchairs and the long road to acceptance. Brad recounts his motorcycle accident and the search-and-rescue effort that saved his life, while Matt shares how a car crash and, years later, a second accident with a d
#174 – Sarah Chippendale and Megan "Peg Leg Meg" | 10 Ninety x They're Chronically Unbalanced
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with the hosts of The Chronically Unbalanced, Sarah Chippendale and Megan "Peg Leg Meg", for a wide-ranging conversation about living with bodies and lives that don't go according to plan. Sarah shares her experience being diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis at 19, how relapses work, what MS actually does to the nervous system, and how treatm
#173- Brit Del Toro
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Brit Del Toro about losing her infant son, Zeppelin, the ripple effects of that tragedy on her marriage and mental health, and the support and judgment she faced while navigating postpartum depression and grief. Brit also shares the recent loss of her husband, Troy, who struggled with addiction, bipolar disorder, and chronic pain before ta
#172 - Katie Derouen and Dawn Simmons
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Dawn Simmons and her daughter, Katie Derouen, from Louisiana. Dawn and Katie lost three members of their family—Lindy Rae Simmons (20), Christopher Simmons (17), and Kamryn "Kam" Simmons (15)—in a 2021 head-on collision caused by a wrong-way drunk driver, John Christopher Lundy. Dawn shares what she remembers from the night of the cras
#171 - Tara Jackson
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Tara Jackson about losing her brother Robert at a young age and how that loss has shaped her life over the past two decades. Tara opens up about the long-term reality of grief, the impact on family relationships, and the constant balance between remembering and moving forward. Mason and co-host Sarah Chippendale join the discussion as they
#170 - Holly O'Malley | 10 Ninety and Chronically Unbalanced
Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% what you're going to do about it. In this crossover with Chronically Unbalanced, Mason, Sarah, and Megan sit down with Holly O'Malley, who grew up as "Summer's little sister" in a town that never forgot a fatal car accident. Holly talks about Sundays at the cemetery, losing her mum at 11, watching her dad slowly die from brain cancer, and what it does to you
#168 - Coop and Annalise
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Coop (Michael Cooper) and his wife Annalise Cooper from Australia about losing both of Coop's parents, Faye and Neil Cooper, just five months apart after Faye's double lung transplant. They walk through the brutal hospital moments, the decision to remove life support, and the shock of Neil's stage-four cancer diagnosis that came before the
#167 - Blue Sawyer
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason hangs out with his son, Blue, right before their big trip to Australia. They talk about surviving a 20-hour flight, Blue's morning routine, school life, favorite sports, and whether he'd rather give up candy or his iPad. Blue also tells the wild story of a kid giving him a $100 bill at school to apologize for making fun of his haircut, and they wrap
#166 - Brianne Hurst
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Brianne Hurst about losing her dad, Jay Myers, and the chaos that followed. She had to navigate medical decisions, the DNR, plan the funeral, and step into responsibility for her younger brother while she was still in shock. They talk about how grief makes you skeptical of everything including the medium who literally read Jay's obituary b
#165 - Kimberli Howard and Jen Petersen
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Kimberli Howard (who lost her son Keaton, age 5, in a 2013 Lake Powell accident) and Jen Petersen (whose daughter Natalie died in a driveway accident) about how grief changes over years—and how connection helps you carry it. They dig into what actually helps (presence, listening, checking in on milestones), what doesn't (comparison, fixes,
#164 - Burke Degroff
Burke DeGroff was the first person to reach my family's car after the crash, he saw everything. I wanted to talk with him for a long time, but I was really scared. I tell people to lean into their grief, not run from it, and this conversation was my chance to practice what I preach. It was just as hard as I expected, but I didn't realize how much of a hero Burke and first responders were that day.
#163 - Amber Lorenzon
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Amber Lorenzen about losing her parents, Richard G. and Maricela Lorenzon, in the same July 25, 2021 crash as his family. They open up about regret, denial, anger, and what it means to still feel broken years later. Amber shares how she's learned to carry grief as a mother and daughter, while Mason reflects on the connection they now share
#162 - Joanna Stokinger
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Joanna Stokinger about losing her grandson Anthony in 2021 and walking with her daughter through the chaos of grief and a military court-martial. Joanna shares what it was like to sit in the tension of anger and forgiveness, and how she's leaned on her background as a victim advocate to keep moving forward. She talks about the small, pra
#161 - Molly K. Jiménez
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Molly Jimenez about living with stage IV metastatic breast cancer. Molly talks about how dark humor, honesty, and presence help her carry it. Molly shares the constant work of shifting treatments, parenting through uncertainty, and a 5-MeO-DMT ceremony that shaped her perspective on life and death. They explore not borrowing grief from th
#160 - Kimberly Vercelli Nochta
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Kimberly about a life marked by hardship and resilience. She reflects on childhood trauma, including abuse and instability, and how moving to Boston became both an escape and another painful chapter. Kimberly shares the moment she chose forgiveness after her mom's brain injury erased the past, allowing their relationship to begin again in
#159 - Janessa Whatcott and Maggie Christensen
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Janessa Whatcott and Maggie Christensen about losing their sons, Nixon and Jax, to osteosarcoma. They share what it's like in the first year compared to seven years later, the hard choices around treatment, how siblings are affected, the costs families face, and what it means to live through hospice at home. They also discuss coping—both t
#158 - Millie Ortiz
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Millie Ortiz about the life and death of her son Calvin (1995–2024) and a mother's fight for truth and dignity. Millie recounts Calvin's grooming by an older man, addiction, trafficking, prison, and the devastating reality of him being found dead on April 5, 2024—and how bias and indifference failed her gay, Latino son. Through tears, evid
#157 - Carlos Vasquez
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Carlos about living after unimaginable loss—and why he rejects "everything happens for a reason." Starting from a Khalil Gibran quote on suffering, Mason unpacks free will, the mixed feelings around calling grievers "strong," and the very real pull of suicidal thoughts. He shares how being a dad to Blue keeps him here, why asking for help
#156 - Brandy Smith Part 2
In part two of this conversation, Mason talks with Brandy about navigating her first year of grief after losing her son Riley. She shares the daily struggle of simply surviving, the exhaustion of carrying grief, and the lessons she's learned from others walking the same road. Brandy reflects on the importance of finding "your people," creating rituals like Monday night poker to keep community clos
#155 - Brandy Smith Part 1
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Brandy Smith and her younger sister Amanda about the life and loss of Brandy's son, Riley. Riley was diagnosed with cancer at just five years old, and his family's unwavering love helped him beat it. Years later, at 17, Riley tragically passed away in a dirt bike accident. Brandy and Amanda reflect on Riley's spirit, his love for the outdo
#154 - Bryan Docobo
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Bryan Docobo about the devastating loss of his 4-year-old son Ethan to Coats Plus syndrome, and the ongoing fight to save his 8-year-old son Liam, who battles the same rare genetic disease. Brian shares the pain of losing a child, the mental discipline it takes to stay present, and his relentless drive to push science forward through stem
#153 - Jessica McInnes
In this epsisode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Jessica McInnes. Jessica lost her seemingly healthy 15 year old son to an undiagnosed brain tumor. She sat down to tell us about Rayce, the shocking process she went through with him the day he passed, and her journey as a grieving mom over the past 3 years. They discuss the rare connection between bereaved mothers, the unfiltered realit
#152 - Chris and Michael Craven
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Michael and Chris Craven to honor the life of their son, Wyatt Leroy Craven, who passed away from acute myeloid leukemia at just five years old. They reflect on Wyatt's light, his courage, and the brutal realities of pediatric cancer, grief, and healing. Through pain, dark humor, and raw honesty, the Cravens share how they've navigated
#151 - Anna Sowell
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason welcomes Anna as she shares the story of her younger brother, Alex Calvo. This episode is a little different, as it covers a topic rarely discussed but one that weighs heavily on many hearts and minds: suicide. Anna lost her little brother, Alex Calvo, at just 33 years old. She received the call no one ever wants to get, from the county sheriff's dep
#150 - Matt Fielding
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Matt Fielding about his stage four cancer diagnosis, the slow loss that came with it, and the brutal honesty that living with death forces on a person. Matt was handed a prescription for hospice the day he was diagnosed. Since then, he's been fighting through constant pain, rounds of chemo, blood clots, and the weight of knowing his time i
#149 - Tyson Ballard
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Tyson Ballard about losing his dad at 11, his brother at 17, and his sister in his mid-30s. Tyson shares how those losses shaped his life, from feeling pressure to stay strong to realizing there was never a safe space to talk about it. They talk about how funerals feel like the only time it's okay to grieve, how quickly people move
#148 - Mason Sawyer and Dustin Diefenderfer
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Dustin Diefenderfer, founder of Mountain Tough, for a raw conversation on mental toughness, grief, and the illusion of control. They reflect on Viktor Frankl's philosophy, the spiritual fallout of tragedy, and the struggle to find meaning after unimaginable loss. Mason opens up about life after losing his wife, kids, brother, and nephe
#147 - Dustin Diefenderfer
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Dustin Diefenderfer, founder of Mountain Tough, about mindset, mental toughness, and the idea of false finishes—those moments in life when you think you've made it through, only to find out there's more ahead. They talk about the challenges of grief, the value of long-form conversations, and why building resilience starts with doing hard t
#146 - Haley Garrison
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Haley Garrison about the heartbreaking loss of her daughter Ellie, and the emotional rollercoaster of 41 days in the NICU. As a school psychologist, Haley opens up about the internal conflict of knowing coping tools but struggling to use them, and what it's like to grieve while raising another child. This episode explores medical trauma, g
#145 - Brittainy Moala
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Brittainy Moala about her daughter Revie and the gut instinct that told her something was wrong—even when doctors said otherwise. What followed was years of misdiagnosis, hospital stays, and learning how to advocate in a system that often dismisses the parents of medically complex kids. Brittainy shares the weight of that fight, how it's c
#144 - Weston Brandon
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Weston Brandon, whose wife Lauren died unexpectedly from a pulmonary embolism just days after giving birth to their son at 26 weeks. Weston shares raw memories of performing CPR, holding his newborn son alone in the NICU, and how he found love again while carrying deep grief. This conversation covers trauma, healing, remarriage, and ch
#143 - Phil Lewis
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Phil Lewis, a retired police officer and current detective, to talk about life in law enforcement, grief, and healing after loss. They kick things off with lighthearted conversation about speeding tickets, favorite cop movies, and stories from Phil's early career. The episode then shifts as Phil shares the story of his son Hunter, who
#142 - Parts of Us
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason, Matt, and Keisha talk about the upcoming July 25th memorial event honoring Kortni, Riggins, Franki, Race, and Ryder. Held at West Jordan High—the site of their funeral—the event blends storytelling, IFS therapy, and a healing yoga session. The team opens up about grief, identity, and how moving toward pain is the only way through it. All proceeds go
#141 - Nicholas and Susan Shaw
In this two-part episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Nick and Susie Shaw about the tragic loss of their 9-year-old son, William, who died in a ski accident while on vacation in Montana. Nick shares the events of that day in vivid detail, including the moment he had to tell his wife what happened—and the powerful words she offered in return: "It's not your fault." Susie then shares h
#140 - Cristin Ryan-Almeida
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Cristin Almeida shares the heartbreaking story of losing her son Tyler to undiagnosed epilepsy, brought on by a traumatic brain injury from a snowboarding accident. She reflects on the days leading up to his death and the emotional toll that followed—grappling with guilt, anger, and the struggle to redefine her identity without him. Cristin also talks abou
#139 - The 10 Ninety Foundation
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason Sawyer and Ryan Garner announce the launch of The 10 Ninety Foundation—a 501(c)(3) non-profit created to support families navigating the loss of a loved one. The foundation will help cover funeral expenses and other costs tied to grief. Mason and Ryan share what it took to turn their podcast and speaking efforts into a formal non-profit, opening up a
#138 - Brittney Obray
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Brittney Obray about the unimaginable grief of losing her son Dexton to suicide. Brittney speaks candidly about the absence of clear warning signs, the role social media played in Dexton's mental health, and the moment her world shifted forever. The conversation highlights the importance of having honest discussions around mental health, b
#137 - Vincent Vargas
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Vince Vargas about life after military service, healing from moral injury, and the long journey of finding purpose again. Vince shares his story of going from serving as an Army Ranger to acting in Mayans M.C., opening up about survivor's guilt, PTSD, and the hidden battles veterans face when they return home. This conversation is a raw lo
#136 - Brandon Crozier
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Brandon Crozier about losing his father in a car crash at age 12 and how that trauma led him into addiction, gang involvement, and over a decade in prison. Brandon shares his journey through grief, the realities of incarceration, and the turning point that led to his sobriety. Now several years clean, he's building homes, mentoring others
#135 - Garrett George Part 2: Service Became My Survival
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Garrett George about the loss of his best friend Chad, and how that tragedy led him into years of addiction. Garrett shares his experience surviving abuse, the shame that kept him silent, and the moment he finally chose to speak out. They discuss the weight of grief, the grip of drug dependency, and the power of forgiveness. Garrett reflec
#134 - Nikita Schio
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Nikita Schio about the sudden loss of her brother Dylan, who died from an aggressive cancer at just 26. Nikita shares what it was like to watch his body shut down in real time, the helplessness she felt navigating hospitals, and the guilt that hit her after he passed. She opens up about her battles with anxiety, the hard work of going to t
#133 - Russ McKell
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Russ McKell about the loss of his brother Steve McKell. Russ shares how he's learned to cope by celebrating life instead of fixating on death anniversaries. He also opens up about working with at-risk youth, and how that work shapes his views on grief, emotional intelligence, and healing. They talk about the power of living in the moment,
#132 - Taylor Potter
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Taylor Potter about the tragic loss of her sister, Katelyn Self, and sister-in-law, Amanda Self, after her father, battling severe depression and anxiety, deliberately drove his car into a restaurant where their family was dining. Taylor shares how she and her family have faced the aftermath—coping with grief, navigating forgiveness, and l
#131 - Adam Schroeder
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Adam Schroeder about the loss of his son, Gage, and his path through grief. Adam shares how embracing vulnerability, especially among men, has been key to his healing. They discuss the impact of trauma, emotional intelligence, and the role of compassion. Adam also reflects on internal family systems therapy, overcoming addiction, and the s
#130 - Boston Lambourne and Isaiah Reiser
In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with high school basketball players Boston Lamborn and Isaiah Reiser to talk about their personal experiences with grief and loss. Boston opens up about losing his mother and sister in a tragic drowning accident at age ten, while Isaiah shares how he lost his father to cancer when he was eight. Together, they reflect on how these losses hav
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