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Sex, Drugs & Sound Bowls: Psychospiritual Healing, Plant Medicine & Authentic Self Love
Sex, Drugs & Sound Bowls: Psychospiritual Healing, Plant Medicine & Authentic Self Love
A raw, unfiltered podcast exploring plant medicine wisdom, psychedelic healing, sound healing, nervous system repair, trauma healing, grief, and spiritual awakening in real time. Host Jessie Siren reports live mid-process, mid-chrysalis, mid-mush, unfiltered and deeply human, devoted to mind, body, and soul transformation.
Episodes
When Patterns Finally Break | The Mind, Karmic Cycles & The Flood That Changes Everything
Season 2, Episode 5HI FRIENDS! Settled in with a warm cup of horsetail tea and here to take you on a journey through some of the most powerful tools and ideas I've been sitting with lately. I open up my windowsill apothecary and walk you through the every day health boosting treasures I’ve been storing there. From tooth health to electrolytes replenishing (it's not a very far jump).From t
Rigid Bones, Rigid Minds: Somatic Practices for Releasing Physical and Emotional Tension
Season 2, Episode 4A prayer and blessing for you, and for me:Source. Love. God. Universe, please continue to show me what I am blind to. What I have been unwilling or unable to see that is holding me back from living my fullest, most compassionate, most ecstatic, love-infused, joy-infused existence. Show me. Teach me. Teach me in ways that wow me and delight me and leave me wondering. Teach me in
You Magnetize What You Broadcast: The Rabbit, the Eagle, and the Frequency of Fear
Season 2, Episode 3There is an old story about the rabbit. Running through the field, gripped by terror, it cries out, “don't eat me, eagle, don't eat me” until finally the shadow of wings darkens the grass and the eagle swoops down and does exactly that. It was rabbit who called it in its exact demise. Not because it wanted to be consumed, but because fear is a frequency, and frequency i
The Power of the Sleeping and Awakening Trauma Body: Stories I Wish I Had Heard at the Beginning (the Middle, and Hell, NOW)
Sex, Drugs, & Sound Bowls | Season 2, Episode 2 *TRIGGER
WARNING*This is an episode all about unpacking sexual trauma. No gruesome details, but storied expression and feels. It journeys through the shadowlands and lands in the valley of GRACE and gratitude <3 If you're here with me, I'm so sorry it's been hard, and I'm so happy we found each other <3Shiiiiiiiit I keep alm
Navigating Trauma: Somatic Healing, Remineralizing Teeth & Reclaiming Your Power From the Inside Out
Season 2, Episode 1Butthole lips, tucked tailbone, contracted belly OH MY! These are the postures of a body living in fear and I wore them for most of my life. In this episode I'm reporting live from the middle of my own unraveling: how trauma shows up in the face, the tissues, and the teeth, and the natural, embodied ways I've been finding my way back to open. We talk about natural ways t
The Origin Story: Sex, Drugs, & Sound Bowls #19
THE LAST EPISODE OF THE SEASON BBS! Holy cow. Houston, we have a SEASON. So fucking grateful to be here, breath in my lungs, truth on my tongue, in all my glorious messiness with YOU. Thank you thank you thank you. For every listen, share, email, text, heartfelt reflection. Thank you for mirroring back to me at every turn there is nothing WRONG WITH BEING IN PROCESS, with being messy, mushy, confu
How to Age 10 Years in One Week: Navigating Death, Grief, and the Loss of Home #18
It’s hard to explain, but John was Matt’s standing dad for the past two decades. And he’s gone, and the lands gone, and the community is broken, and we still want to live here… on the land where I first saw Matt @ 14, where we got married, where we wished we could live and grow old together… Behind the garden that he spent his whole life cultivating, on the river he was born and raised on. But it’
Stop Begging For Crumbs #17
I cried in the first 10 seconds of this episode. SO MANY FEELS RN in the wake of this solar eclipse portal and shadow of this new moon in Pisces. I am cracked the fuck open, so wide it feels painful like a birthing, so beautiful it feels like a first deep breath after a lifetime of holding.This is what healing looks like. This is mycelium brain and integration at its messiest/finest. I got brave a
So…I Took a Lot of Mushrooms: Letting Go of Control #15
I recorded this episode the day after a heroic dose journey with the epic Cloud Seeker. Fresh on the other side of a deep and epic exploration of inner space, still tender, still integrating, still listening.Nothing polished, nothing "figured out". Just beginning the process of weaving what was shown to me back into ordinary life: journey notes, pieces of insight, feelings, and revelatio
Becoming The Safe Place (No Thorns, No Rose, Baby) #16
In this episode, life holds up the mirror and I reflect on recognizing the pattern of looking outside myself for safety, protection, or rescue, and the shift that happens when I realize the whole and healed masculine and feminine I’ve been waiting for...actually live inside of me.I talk about healing and integrating these energies and finally fucking BECOMING my own safe place. I revel in the powe
Bye-bye Gray Days (& Hair): The Magic of Re-patterning #14
What does it mean to nurture the feminine? Not just to mental it, but to LIVE it?Exploring the discomfort and power of re-patterning, especially as it shows up when we begin holding clear boundaries. A boundary, by nature, creates disappointment because we’re saying no to something or someone who wants a yes. This episode is about me navigating how to stand in that truth with grace, clarity, and s
I Can Fucking Read #13
There was a time when the world was full of signs and symbols, but I didn’t yet have the language to read them. Like a child staring at letters before they make sense. In this episode, I trace my journey from the sleeping maiden to slow awakening. Somatic, psychic, collective. This is about learning the technology of presence and direct perception, remembering how to read the living world, and wha
Matt's Podcast Virginity (& Other Sacred Initiations) #12
Today is a momentous day. The day where I finally take Matt’s podcast virginity. We’ve been together 100’s of lifetimes, 12 years in this one. I’m the talker, the nurturer, the dreamer, the visionary. He’s the rock, the anchor, the safety, the builder. Sharing here was vulnerable and brave of my sweet Matty but I am so glad he was brave enough to do it because he is truly a testament to the power
The Time I Almost Blew Up My Family (& Other Ways We Ignore Our Intuition) #11
This episode begins with the retelling of a pretty fresh and very real story of the time I smelled propane in my house… and still almost made fried rice because I “didn’t want to make a fuss.” (Yes, the firefighters later told me there was a lot of propane in the air. Yes, I could’ve actually blown up my family. No, I’m not proud.)From there, I open up about all the ways we learn to override our i
Remembering How To Human #10
🎙️I’m your host, Jessie Siren! Oooor maybe not a host anymore. Maybe just a woman documenting the way of her own becoming🌿These are my transmissions (aka ramblings) as I reconsider what it means to be a human living in authentic expression, to feel, to soften, to embody, to stop fucking living to feed the beast of performance and just LIVE and move/speak/share in the ways my spirit feels compelled
Mushrooms, Meltdowns & Sacred Alchemy #9
Hi cutie pies! Today I hit record just after a full-blown meltdown. Complete with a handful of F-bombs and an entire pint of Cold Stone Creamery ice cream (coffee flavor + oreo cookie dough fudge and almonds duh). Because this is the journey too. From there, I dive deep into the transformative magic of devotional repetition aka how intentionally repeating sacred phrases, actions, practices and way
Breakdown to Breakthrough: Nervous System Healing in Real Time #8
In this episode I share from the eye of the storm—smack in the middle of a breakdown that’s becoming a breakthrough. We’ll explore nervous system regulation through the lens of Deb Dana’s book Anchored, and how her teachings are landing in my lived experience in powerful and practical ways. I talk about how pushing forward from a state of panic only plants seeds of more chaos, and how choosing to
Reclaiming Lost Parts: A Reckoning in the TJ's Parking Lot #7
This one’s raw. I recorded it sitting in the Trader Joe’s parking lot, feeling more in my body than maybe ever before. I talk about choosing a new way — and I speak from the middle of the reckoning.When I started the bus project, I was still in fight-or-flight, chasing some shimmering oasis out there so I wouldn’t have to feel what was in here. But pain doesn’t vanish. It waits — like a rubber ban
My First Ever Journey Report: A Deep Dive into the Mystery #6
In the whirlwind of modern life, my husband Matt and I have learned to make space—sacred space—for the kind of remembering that only comes through deep inner journeying. When things feel sticky, stagnant, or spiraling, we return to the wellspring of connection that lives beneath the noise. Sometimes this portal opens through silence. Other times through rhythm, breath, sex or the support of ancien
From Freeze to Fire: What My Husband Taught Me About Sex, Safety, and Showing Up #5
Hiya friend, and welcome back! In this episode of Sex, Drugs, & Sound Bowls, I share a deeply personal aha moment that landed this winter—one that cracked me wide open. What started as an attempt to record a podcast with Matt turned into a powerful reflection on trauma, intimacy, and the freeze response that shows up in so many of our most vulnerable moments.I speak candidly about how, for yea
Eat the Wild: Harmonizing with Spring #4
Hi Wildflower!In this episode, I’m sharing how I’ve been harmonizing with the energy of spring—not through big changes, but by paying attention to what’s growing right at my feet.Lately, I’ve been practicing eating one wild thing a day—nettles, dandelions, yarrow—plants that are bursting through the earth all around me here in the Pacific Northwest. These wild greens carry something I’ve been crav
Sex, Drugs & Sound Bowls — Trailer
Welcome to Sex, Drugs & Sound Bowls, a podcast for the wild-hearted seekers, the deep feelers, and those unraveling the old stories in search of their own truth.In this trailer, I share the spark that ignited this podcast—my personal healing journey, the unraveling of anxiety and self-doubt, and the power of tuning out the noise to finally hear my own inner guidance. This space is not about fi
The Power of Story – How to Co-Create with the Universe #3
Hi sweet souls and welcome back! This is the episode that just might get me excommunicated. Here, I dive into what it means to be a conscious curator of your life—an intentional, mindful author of your reality, weaving together the threads of your experience with intention, mindfulness, and gratitude.I explore how the stories we tell ourselves about the things we experience—the dramas, as well as
Pain as a Portal – Finding Flow at Rock Bottom #2
In this episode of Sex, Drugs, & Sound Bowls, I reflect on what it means to hit rock bottom—and how pain, when we truly honor it, can become a powerful portal. A guide. A signal pointing us toward the parts of our lives, bodies, and hearts that need our attention.Hi friends! Welcome back! From breakdowns and debt to doubt and overwhelm, I share what it’s been like to stop fixing and start feel
Letting Go of Control – Gratitude as a Gateway #1
Hi friends, it's me, Jessie! Welcome to my very first episode! In this first episode of Sex, Drugs, and Sound Bowls, I dive into the process of letting go of the need to micromanage and control every little detail of life. I explore how we can stop waiting for the “perfect time” and instead start showing up authentically, just as we are. Join me as I reflect on my journey to meet the spirit of the
