ALIVE with Tenji
Life is a lot! I'm constantly growing, learning and maturing in my understanding of what it means to be alive and how to apply my lessons to have an easier, more fulfilling life. I'm Tenji Moyana :) Alive is a casual blog-style podcast where I'm sharing what I'm learning about what it means to be alive and make the most of our existence. If you're into leadership, I also host the Abundant Leaders Podcast.
Episodes
56. Devotion: Choosing the broken things that cannot be fixed
How do we come to peace with who we are, what we can’t have, what we can’t fix, who we will never be, what we will never have? How do we do this so that we can be devoted to ourselves and our paths and our lives? How do we free ourselves of the tyranny of “if only”?In this epi, I explore things in my life that Life has forced me to choose because I finally realised I couldn’t “fix” them and, quite
55. Trying GLP-1 for endometriosis: My 6-week results
Guys! I never imagined that I’d try GLP-1/semaglutide for endo pain, but here we are. And the gag is (Hey Keke!), it’s working! I started on a micro dose in June after my internist (specialist physician) recommended I try it. Join me in this episode for all the details, including:What I take, how much, where I buy it and how I injectMy journey to finding the right doseMain improvements to endometr
54. Devotion: I love myself, but do I like myself?
After doing the work of learning how to love ourselves, do we ever get to the point where we actively like ourselves? Like, enjoy ourselves as much as we delight in our best friends or lovers?For a long time - too long - I didn’t realise that I was merely tolerating and taking care of myself, but I absolutely did not delight in who I was. And this makes me sad to look back on.The path of healing f
53. Devotion: Returning to “God” and learning how to be held but free
You all know that me and Christianity aren’t a thing anymore. I needed to find my way to the truth as I experience it rather than as I’ve been taught to or expected to experience it. And I needed to heal some major “God” wounds.What I believe now is bigger than any religion because religions are ultimately just vehicles to help humans articulate and express/live out our understanding of the divine
52. Devotion: The tyranny of “greatness” and how to love your ordinary life
The title of this epi says it all. The goal of “living up to my potential” has terrorised me. Terrorised me. From my parents, teachers, schools and companies expecting or predicting “great things” to my own insecurities and needing desperately to create what I thought would be a “worthy life”. The concept of “achieving greatness” has had me in a chokehold. But I got diagnosed with endo and it’s se
51. Devotion: Waiting to be saved vs committing to being alive
As a child of trauma, my suicidal teen mind believed that I couldn’t survive on my own and that if I just made enough money, or was rescued by God, or found a nice man to love me, or figured out how to stop being sad, THEN I would be safe, I would survive, I would make it, I would be good enough. My life has been a slow and very painful unraveling of that survival premise. And this year, another d
50. Season 3 trailer: A journey of devotion
Ciao peeps, welcome to season 3!! And episode 50! Wowsers. I can’t believe we’ve made it to 50 episodes! I’m a beast. This is a quickie letting you know what you’re in for this season. We’re talking about devotion as the theme of my year as a Personal Year 6 in numerology this year.In theme with the frequency of the 6 here’s what I’ve been chewing on:I’ve learned about what it means to be devoted.
49. Being a death doula, letting my father go
Death is tricky business. Especially when you’re not ready to go. My father died during Covid and it had a profound impact on me, my understanding of the spiritual role I play for mankind and the evolution of my spiritual path. My dad told me, through a medium, that I had helped him find his way home to soul world/ life after death when he died. The crazy thing is I had no idea the significance of
48. What happens when we die?
What happens when we leave Earth? Where do our souls go? What does what happens next tell us about the purpose of our lives today? And how does knowing what’s on the other side influence how we live today - our choices, our relationship with life and ourselves, our understanding of our life path? And is it better to know what’s next or live in blissful unawareness?Join me as I share my perspective
47. Is fear of death keeping our lives small?
Today, I reflect on how the sudden death of my favourite cousin devastated me but changed my relationship with death in unexpected ways.Death is something that terrifies most of us. We’ve made it a taboo topic and something we spend our whole lives trying to avoid. How do we come to peace with the fact that we all die? What do we need to believe about our capacity to survive our own deaths and the
46. 2026 numerology: The year of new beginnings + discover your personal year theme
2026 is here, guys, and it’s giving us the chance to start again. This numerological cycle is a Year 1 and it’s offering us supportive energy for new beginnings, planting new seeds, being sovereign and charting our own path with assertiveness and self-trust. Let’s explore this energy in greater depth and discuss how 2025’s Year 9 energy of attainment, closure, and humanitarian leadership also push
45. Season 2 begins: Life update, moving to Zimbabwe and wisdom from mushroom ceremonies
Hi lovers, I’m back after a little break from the pod. I’m experimenting with recording in seasons - dropping a few juicy episodes for you to binge to in meaningful chunks. Tell me what you think about this new model - I’m excited to give it a try. To kick off, let’s talk about my move back to Zimbabwe, where I’m from. Let’s chat about mushroom ceremonies and the clarity and wisdom they bring, eve
44. 5 fun spiritual things ChatGPT wants you to know about me
What a fun episode! I felt like keeping things lighthearted today so I asked ChatGPT - I call her Illuma - to ask me 5 fun spiritual questions it would ask me if it were a fellow mystic meeting me for the first time. What a delight. We talk about favourite tools and practices, secrets I haven’t told anyone before, messages from my future self, the soundtrack to my spiritual journey (this was a har
43. Find your hidden soul path with Sidereal Human Design
Today’s episode started as a life update and evolved into a deep-dive into how my experience exploring and experimenting with my sidereal Human Design chart is teaching me so much about my hidden soul lessons, my secret soul longings and the difference between my personality and psyche vs my soul’s truth.I share where I think Tropical human design fits in our personal development work (showing us
42. Virgo season: Is the pursuit of harmony and service to others keeping us sick?
Virgo season is winding down! Virgo governs the 6th house in astrology which governs healing, service, work life and routines. So this time of year will offer us opportunities to strengthen and support these areas of our life.I’ve been learning a lot about psychosomatic symptoms, the link between trauma, the nervous system and physical illness, and how healing our emotional wounds and addressing m
41. It’s ok to say no to more growth
I realised recently that I’ve been living my life like it’s a job in which I have no rights and no benefits. Always saying yes to every growth opportunity - even when I don’t have mental, physical or emotional capacity for more. Life isn’t a job, an obligation and a game of endurance that you get an A for if you struggle hard enough. We get to be happy, joyful, safe, and to know when we’ve reached
40. Does risk avoidance actually keep us safe?
Ciao tutti! I’m on the cusp of launching a new venture in my business and so much fear is coming up as I gear up to do it. So, today I’m chatting about risk - something I’ve had to think a lot about as I take this step - and how hard it is to take a big, bright, bold step towards what we most desire to experience in our lives.Life is as abundant as we choose for it to be, but how do we believe tha
39. Gemini season: Own your voice, express your truth, explore new identities
Gemini is here and bringing the energy of self-expression, playfulness, evolution without the pressure to define oneself, and trusting your voice. Today I share my experience learning how to let go of old identities and rigid philosophies and expectations of myself, and how to embrace curiosity, an adaptable sense of identity, and self-definition instead of being defined by the beliefs held by my
38. When exhaustion goes deeper than the body: Advanced self-care using Human Design
Hi hi! I’ve realised that when my tank is beyond empty and I’m teetering close to shut down, more intense - and less conventional - self- methods are needed to truly regulate my system and nourish me back to life.I realised that so many of us limit self care to physical practices hoping they will automatically replenish our hearts and minds as well. But what we need to do is take a targeted approa
37. Chronic illness, healing my relationship with my body, past life karma and manifesting healing
I have endometriosis and it’s been the single biggest challenge I’ve experienced in my life. But it’s taught me how to stop trying to control and change my body, and how to be in healthier relationship with it. It’s also brought me into deeper spiritual reverence for the wonder that is the human body’s ability to survive and be steadfastly committed to the soul’s purpose. And most recently, it’s r
36. Truth is not absolute: Letting go of certainty and finding freedom in not knowing
In this episode I’m waxing lyrical about the nature of truth and whether it serves us to try make truth absolute. I believe that this is something we do to try cope with reality and to try to feel safe. But the need for right and wrong, black and white, truth and lies, and absolute knowing and certainty limits us. It only separates us from others, makes us struggle to accept reality, makes us make
35. Codependency 2: Breaking unhealthy dating patterns & emotional avoidance
In today’s conversation I share the culmination of 5 years of discovering and beginning to overcome my unconscious emotional avoidance one failed relationship at a time. I explore the origins of emotional avoidance, including parentification, unhealed childhood wounds, good-girl conditioning and attachment styles. I discuss unravelling repeating dating patterns and mistakes, deciding enough was en
34. Codependency 1: Navigating conflict and platonic relationship endings
A little update on my life turned into a reflection on recent platonic relationship endings that have rocked my world and made my world the last few months. I achieved something I never would have been able to had I not stood for myself and found my voice in some of my closest relationships. But it took time for things to unwind and for me to accept the relationships had to end, so of course they
33. Clawing your way back to joy after an impossible loss
How do you move on from the loss you never thought you could survive? How do you make sense of it? When your very foundation is obliterated, how do you find new ground? How do you believe that love is safe and become willing to let joy in again when it feels like it is that very love that caused you so much pain?
Not having the answers to these questions and the fear that extreme loss will destro
32. Oracle cards aren’t evil! Here’s how to use them for clear guidance, support and inspiration
Say it with me: Oracle cards and tarot are not evil. Lol!
For real though, when I was a Christian and for a long time after, I was convinced they were a tool of the Devil used to derail and cast spells of misfortune over my life! It was terrifying.
I have since learned through research and my own experience that they are not – they are merely a tool for receiving guidance and wisdom from whateve
31. Trusting life: What happened when I decided life loves me
Do you believe you live in a hostile universe or a benevolent one?
Trusting life is so hard when you’ve experienced a lot of loss, pain, insecurity and disappointment. But I’ve discovered that repairing our life wound is essential in our spiritual and personal development journeys if we are to become who our souls came here to become, or if we finally want to experience peace and a holding, sense
30. It’s time to learn how to be happy
Guys, I’m a hun who has experienced a lot of pain in life. Death, sorrow, suicidality. Heartbreak, burnout, bullying as a teen. Chronic illness, financial loss, loss of purpose. SO many things. And it all made me generally run sad, pessimistic, and anxious. But I’ve done A LOT of healing work on myself and I feel capable of facing anything life throws my way. I feel secure in my heart and spirit.
29. What do you do when you’ve built the wrong life?
So, what do you do when you’ve built the wrong life? So much happens to us in life that changes who we are – we heal our hearts and past trauma, our values change, we settle into more of ourselves – truer versions of ourselves, we grow up, life happens to us and changes our priorities, and suddenly the life we built, that was once perfect, just no longer serves us anymore.
And we suddenly feel st
28. Letting go: Forgiving ourselves, others, and life for not being perfect
I’ve had to learn to let go of the illusion of perfection that I spent my whole life chasing. Forgiving myself for not always getting it right and not being amazing. Forgiving life for not being amazing to me and what I always dreamed it would be. And forgiving other people for just being human and colliding into me in ways that really hurt me. We’re all doing our best and life is what it is. I ju
26. Is marriage the right choice for everyone? – with Lee Nguni
Most of society assumes that everyone should want to get married. It’s seen as the end goal of every successful woman’s life, and the obvious culmination of any happy relationship. But why are we really getting married?
Today I’m sipping bubbles and snacking on nibbles with my friend Lee Nguni! Lee shares my view that we – especially women – should only get married if it makes sense for US.
We c
27. Does needing love to be unconditional actually help us build healthy relationships?
Video episode. I have found that trying to love unconditionally has kept me in unbalanced relationships for way longer than I should have been because I was focussing so much on how I was loving the other person and not enough on how I was being loved.
Has this happened to you?
I’ve been finding that a more supportive definition for me is “complete love” not “unconditional love” – which means lov
25. Listener question: How do I trust the process while waiting for a breakthrough? | VIDEO
We’re doing something different today! A listener sent in a question asking for advice as she navigates a long period of waiting for a breakthrough in her career.
She’s trusting the process and feels comfortable with her pace of getting active in the job market after a long period of downtime but worries she’s moving slower than everyone else – is something wrong? It doesn’t help that she’s getti
24. The art of manifestation and overcoming the belief that you only get what you work for | VIDEO
There are three things you need to know about me.
1: I have been working my whole life. 2: I hate the topic of “manifestation”. 3: I’m done with being a “good girl”.
About number 1:
Believing that I have to work hard for anything good in my life has left me exhausted and resentful and, as I have discovered, completely out of alignment with the fact that life is abundant and contains more than en
23. Spiritual awakenings, how to survive them and how they transform your life
How do we awaken to the truth of who we are as souls? How do we discover, accept, and lean into our power so that it can transform our lives? What does it mean to have a spiritual awakening? What does it look and feel like? What is its purpose, anyway? What does it mean to become one with the Universe and all it is and to birth new realities from that infinite power? How do we use it to manifest t
22. Tenji at 40: 4 celebrations and 4 lessons from 4 decades of life
This is a special episode with a surprise guest at the end 😉. I turned 40 this month and something shifted in me this birthday. I arrived into a comfort with who I am that I’ve never had before. I’m a vibe. And I’m capable. And I’ve endured and survived so much. I’m ready for an era of joy, DEEP self-confidence and shining boldly as me on an even bigger scale than I ever have before.
Today I’m
21. Why are so many marriages failing?
Guys. Everywhere I look I see an unhappy or failed marriage or people going through monumental challenges in order to find marital happiness again. Is marriage all that it’s cracked up to be? Is the cost I’m seeing (the work, heartache, drama, danger) worth the benefits? I’m questioning whether or not I still want it.
Does marriage still mean to us and play the role in society that it used to? Sh
20. Don’t be an overachiever in 2024
Happy New Year, lovies! My blessing for all of us is that we don’t reject how hard we worked, the risks we took, the fears we faced, and the incredible strides we made in our lives in 2023 by entering into hustle and do the most energy in 2024. Let’s go easier on ourselves this year. Let’s create a soft place for us to land by being our cheerleaders and supporters, and by having REALISTIC expectat
19. Part 3: My 10 go-to spiritual tools | VIDEO
Join me for a video show and tell of a super
comprehensive list of the tools I use to support my spiritual practice – 10 in
total! They ground me, sharpen my energy and hone my gifts, help me gain clarity, insight and wisdom, help me connect with my guides, and maintain my physical, emotional and spiritual wellbeing, as well as to learn and master myself.
I cover everything from Human Design, ast
18. Part 2: My 12 favourite spiritual practices | VIDEO
Here’s a rundown of the practices that support me in my spiritual walk and in life in general – 12 in total! From meditation to plant medicine ceremonies to nightly energy clearing and regular healing baths, I do a lot to support myself to remain energetically and spiritually clear, attuned and supported to do my work in this life. Hopefully you get some inspiration for your own spiritual path. As
17. Part 1: My spiritual beliefs | VIDEO
I choose not to be affiliated with any single religion or school of thought, but rather, I’ve taken bits and pieces from many of them to form an understanding of what is true that resonates with me. I’m ok with being my own leader and creating my own truth because I trust myself, I have discernment, I’ve cultivated my relationship with my intuition to a point that I’m comfortable letting it be my
16. Fighting for my purpose: Life with a chronic illness | VIDEO
I have endometriosis and I’m in the thick of bad flare which is getting me down and making me wonder: How do I have a good life with this illness? How do I fulfil my desires and live abundantly and get to realise my purpose? Is there a lesson in here that my soul is inviting me to learn about the source of my strength and power and impact? (Clearly there is – and I think I understand some of it.)
15. How do we stay connected when our growth pulls us in a different direction? | VIDEO
My first video podcast episode! Watch it on Spotify, or listen to the audio in the usual places. Stay tuned to the end of the video for a special message from our spirit guides and oracle card to support us.
I’ve done a lot to fight for my voice, my truth, to find my personal power in a family filled with strong personalities and siblings and parents who had a different experience of the same even
14. Do we really have to forgive others?
Forgiveness is often spoken about as the only way to truly move on. But is it? What is forgiveness anyway? Is it coming to peace and acceptance? Is it taking someone else off the hook for what they did? Does it mean we must continuously expose ourselves to the scene of the crime or situations and people that wound us repeatedly? Is turning the other cheek really a virtue? Where do boundaries fit i
13. Breaking dating patterns
I came to the pod to talk about forgiveness but ended up giving an update on my online dating exploits. Lol! I’ve met an interesting guy who’s bringing such different energy into my world that I think he might be the pattern breaker, should I choose to progress with him. I’ve always gone for a certain type of guy and it never works out. This feels like an opportunity to pick something different. T
12. Human design: A map to your soul
If you’re in my inner circle or pay any attention to my Insta stories you’ll know how much I LOVE Human Design. It’s the one archetyping system that has given me the most comprehensive view into who I am not just from a personality and strengths perspective, but also from an energetic and spiritual perspective. (And I am a personality test junkie so I know this one is special!)
I believe that one
11. Suicide
Life is real. And hard. So hard for so many of us. Yet we survive the moments that will pull us into the void and come back willing to be here, to keep trying, to keep living and angling ourselves towards life and the gift of being alive.
This podcast is about what it means to be ALIVE and to live well. But what happens when it’s hard to keep ourselves alive?
I’m a suicide survivor – that’s what
10. Beyond the mind: The nature of consciousness
As I advance on my spiritual path, I’m discovering more about consciousness i.e., our awareness of what is. There’s more than just the mind, which is what we typically refer to as conscious or subconscious awareness.
There are 5 more levels of consciousness, in fact. The 3 individual ones are: somatic (body), spiritual (soul) and non-mind (a mysterious beauty I recently discovered that is hugely
9. Let’s talk about sex, baby
I’m talking about it all –
How respectability politics set us up to fail in our marriages.
How single sexually-active women are villains.
How men want ladies in the streets but freaks in the sheets yet they marry sexually inexperienced women.
How women’s vagina’s belong to their fathers then to Jesus, then to their husbands and then to the grave when their husbands die - but never to themselves (
8. Why did our souls choose the parents we have – for better or worse?
This is an ode to my parents – my late father, Dr Kombo James Moyana, and my living mother, Marcia Petricia Moyana.
Our souls choose our parents. It blew my mind when I discovered this because my parents were both my first loves (I idolised them) and my greatest heartbreak (they broke my spirit).
They’ve left me with so many gifts of character, values, support and rich experience, but they also le
7. Can we have the lives of our dreams? Why is hoping for ease so scary?
I was raised believing that hard work = success, that we earn everything we have, that we can get what we need but wants are another story, that life is generally hard and nothing good comes easy, that at any moment we can lose everything we have so we have to be austere and humble…
It’s led me to distrust flow, to settle for less sometimes, to horde resources or be quick to downgrade so that I
6. I hate patriarchy. Why don’t men realise that they hate it too?
Guys. Patriarchy has us in a choke hold. All of us. Men and women. I hate seeing what it does to men – how much they suffer because of it. But the feminist movement is coming for them too and asking them if they’re coping being as disconnected from their feminine energy as we were from our masculine energy.
There’s a beautiful invitation for men to find healing and more freedom if they can let
5. The joys and perils of online dating – Part 2 The joys
Your girl is on Bumble and LOVING it. This is the best online dating run I’ve ever had. Hot men, smart men, sparkly bantery connections, down to earth people. It’s so nice. But I’ve also been on a date with a guy who refused to take off his sunglasses during the entire date! And the other guy who called my spirituality pagan LOL. That went nowhere. I’m experiencing a lot and seeing the fruits of a
4. The joys and perils of online dating – Part 1 The perils
Your girl is on Bumble and LOVING it. This is the best online dating run I’ve ever had. Hot men, smart men, sparkly bantery connections, down to earth people. It’s so nice. But I’ve also been on a date with a guy who refused to take off his sunglasses during the entire date! And the other guy who called my spirituality pagan LOL. That went nowhere. I’m experiencing a lot and seeing the fruits of a
3. Why is finding love so hard?
I’m single at 39 and spent most of my 20s and 30s feeling ashamed at “not being able to make love work” and falling prey to all the ways that society tells a woman she’s at fault or less-than if no one has chosen her. Even though I never lacked marriage options and proposals, relationships never stuck for me. Discovering and unpacking my trauma and learning what my soul’s intention is for this lif
1. What does life mean? How do we live well?
I started a podcast. It's hilarious because I already have one - but this one is different. On this pod, I'm talking about what life means and how we live well. I'm chatting about spirituality, personal development, what I'm learning about life and what I'm experiencing e.g., visiting a shaman for the first time, joining Bumble for the Nth time... It's casual, fun and easy
2. What is the purpose of life? Is love real?
I had an existential crisis in December 2022 and it led to the most paradigm shifting realisation that love isn't real... well what we think love is is not what love actually is. And if love isn't what we think it is, is finding, being and dwelling in love the main point of life? If it isn't, then what is?
Deep questions.
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