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The Leftover Pieces: Suicide Loss Conversations

The Leftover Pieces: Suicide Loss Conversations

Melissa Bottorff-Arey 330 Episodes Jul 30, 2026

The Leftover Pieces Podcast explores life after suicide loss through honest conversations with survivors, experts, and grieving families. Host Melissa Bottorff-Arey, who lost her 21-year-old son Alex to suicide in 2016, blends intimate interviews with solo reflections on grief, trauma, and healing. Topics include child loss, anniversaries, stigma, faith, and everyday practices for living forward after loss. The show also offers insight for supporters, educators, and professionals on providing genuine, non-fixing support.

Episodes

No Speeches, No Platitudes: What to Say After Suicide Loss with Shelby Forsythia
No Speeches, No Platitudes: What to Say After Suicide Loss with Shelby Forsythia Jul 30, 2026 3431 Words matter.After suicide loss, the things people say—or do not say—can either soften the loneliness or deepen the pain. Grievers are often met with platitudes, awkward silence, spiritual bypassing, invasive questions, or comments that unintentionally place blame where love and compassion are needed most.In this episode of The Leftover Pieces: Suicide Loss Conversations, Melissa welcomes Shelby F
Grief in Everyday Life: When Child Loss Shows Up in Ordinary Moments
Grief in Everyday Life: When Child Loss Shows Up in Ordinary Moments Jul 20, 2026 2186 Leave me a voicemail here: 🎙 Leave me a messageLong-term grief after child loss does not only show up on birthdays, anniversaries, holidays, or the obviously hard days. Sometimes grief appears in the middle of ordinary life — in a song, a smell, a number, a place, a memory, a show, a laugh, or a moment no one else would understand.In this episode of Down the Rabbit Hole, Melissa reflects on how ch
When You Don’t Trust Yourself Anymore: Guilt and Motherhood After Child Loss
When You Don’t Trust Yourself Anymore: Guilt and Motherhood After Child Loss Jul 6, 2026 2095 After child loss by suicide, many grieving mothers do not only miss their child — they also stop trusting themselves.In this episode of Down the Rabbit Hole, Melissa explores one of the most under-talked-about parts of long-term grief after the loss of a child by suicide: the collapse of self-trust.This is not only about early grief guilt. This episode looks at what can happen later, when guilt be
Legacy After Child Loss by Suicide: What Alex Taught Me About Carrying Love Forward
Legacy After Child Loss by Suicide: What Alex Taught Me About Carrying Love Forward Jun 30, 2026 2796 After child loss by suicide, legacy can become a bridge from survival into connection, meaning, and carrying love forward.In this episode of Down the Rabbit Hole, Melissa reads her chapter from Because They Lived: Memories & Stories of Amazing Kids Lost to Suicide - As Told by the Moms They Left Behind --Volume 7, The chapter is titled “The Seventh Thread: What Alex Taught Me About Legacy.”Thi
I Survived, But I Don’t Know Who I Am: Identity After the Loss of a Child by Suicide
I Survived, But I Don’t Know Who I Am: Identity After the Loss of a Child by Suicide Jun 22, 2026 1309 What happens when you survive the earliest years of grief, but no longer recognize yourself?In this episode of Down the Rabbit Hole, Melissa explores the identity crisis many grieving mothers face after the loss of a child by suicide — especially once the earliest survival years begin to shift and the deeper “now what?” questions rise.This episode explores:why survival takes so much emotional, phy
Grief on Screen: What TV and Movies Reveal About Child Loss and Long-Term Grief
Grief on Screen: What TV and Movies Reveal About Child Loss and Long-Term Grief Jun 19, 2026 2153 🎙 Leave me a message: Share a question, your story, or your person’s name for a future episode → theleftoverpieces.com/voicemailEmail me at: melissa@theleftoverpieces.comSometimes fictional grief stories give us just enough distance to see our own grief more clearly. It can hold up a mirror of sorts.In this episode of Down the Rabbit Hole, Melissa reflects on several recent shows and films that po
Identifying a Potential New Risk Factor for Youth Suicide | A Conversation with Paul D. Tieger
Identifying a Potential New Risk Factor for Youth Suicide | A Conversation with Paul D. Tieger May 27, 2026 1426 In this brief but so important Bonus "Mini-sode", Melissa sits down with internationally recognized personality expert and author Paul D. Tieger to discuss groundbreaking new research exploring a possible connection between inborn personality type and increased suicide risk in young people.Take the Survey: CLICK HERE TO TAKE SURVEYThis first-of-its-kind study is seeking participation spe
20 Years After Suicide Loss: Tracy Oeser on Grief, Healing & Survival to Service
20 Years After Suicide Loss: Tracy Oeser on Grief, Healing & Survival to Service May 25, 2026 4252 In this deeply honest conversation about suicide loss and long-term grief, Melissa sits down with Tracy Oeser, MSPsy — suicide loss survivor, grief educator, bereavement coach, and founder of Journey Thru Grief.Nearly 20 years after the suicide loss of her daughter Chelsie, Tracy shares the reality of grieving a child to suicide, what healing actually looks like over time, and how survivors can le
Survival, Hope, Healing… Then What?: Why Grief Changes Years After Child Loss by Suicide
Survival, Hope, Healing… Then What?: Why Grief Changes Years After Child Loss by Suicide May 18, 2026 972 What (actually) happens after survival?In this episode of Down the Rabbit Hole, Melissa speaks honestly about the part of grief few people prepare grieving mothers for — the “now what?” space that often emerges years after child loss and suicide loss.After the shock fades, the anniversaries pass, and the world seems to move forward, many mothers quietly find themselves facing something deeper:iden
Mother’s Day After Child Loss: If I’m Telling the Truth
Mother’s Day After Child Loss: If I’m Telling the Truth May 10, 2026 882 Mother’s Day after child loss can feel impossibly complicated. In this episode of Down the Rabbit Hole, Melissa speaks honestly about the layered reality of motherhood after suicide loss—the grief, the love, changing family dynamics, and the truth that this day never feels the same again. 💜 In this episode: Why Mother’s Day changes forever after child loss The duality of gratitude and grief How la
Do We Ever Stop Grieving?: Life After Suicide Loss and the Truth No One Tells You
Do We Ever Stop Grieving?: Life After Suicide Loss and the Truth No One Tells You Apr 2, 2026 1514 Do we ever stop grieving after losing a child to suicide? In this episode, we go 'down the rabbit hole' to explore the reality of long-term grief after suicide loss and what happens after the initial survival years. Many grieving mothers find themselves asking “what now?” after the first few years, when support fades but the grief remains. This episode introduces a new way of understandi
When the Mind Breaks: A Mother, A Doctor, and the Reality of Psychosis
When the Mind Breaks: A Mother, A Doctor, and the Reality of Psychosis Mar 24, 2026 2917 In this episode, I’m joined by Colleen Kraft—a pediatrician of 36 years and a mother of three—who shares the story of her son Tim, who died by suicide in February of 2022 at the age of 31.Tim’s journey included late-onset schizophrenia, beginning with early psychosis in his late twenties. Together, we explore what it looks like to love someone through serious mental illness, the challenges familie

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