recovered-ish with chloe cox
Recovered-ish is a podcast about the real, messy side of eating disorder recovery. Host Chloe Cox, a therapist and recovery coach who has personal experience with eating disorders, shares honest conversations about the mental noise, guilt, body image struggles, and pressure to shrink. The show offers practical tools and support for building a healthier relationship with food and your body, without aiming for perfection.
Episodes
why is resting so hard when you've had an eating disorder? | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 40
Episode DescriptionAudio only this week — my phone broke, so no video version.Our first real mini-sode. This one came out of a conversation with my Quasi-Recovery Exit alumni group about why rest is so uncomfortable for so many of us in recovery.If you feel like you have to earn your rest the same way you once felt you had to earn your food — that's not a coincidence. I get into where that wi
what I'll say, what I won't, and what I can't control — raising a daughter after an ED | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 39
Episode DescriptionI've been putting this episode off for months, honestly because I've been scared to record it.I'm about to have a daughter, and ending the cycle of eating disorders in my family is one of the most important things to me. In this one I'm sharing where my head is at — what I used to think I had to be for her, what I actually believe now, and the specific things
6 things I've changed my mind about in ED recovery | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 38
Episode DescriptionAlmost twelve years into recovery, and a lot of what I once held as non-negotiable has shifted. Some of it through my own healing, some of it through years of sitting across from clients.In this episode I'm walking through six things I used to believe about eating disorder recovery and now think differently about: exercise, being "recovered," harm reduction, intui
what my eating disorder cost me — and it wasn't my health | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 37
Episode DescriptionWe talk about eating disorders in labs and vitals and weight. But when I look back at mine, the physical stuff was never the thing that woke me up.What actually got me was everything else it took — the dinners I sat through without being there, the party I ran away from, the year in New York where I never once let myself have a bagel, the photo of my nana and my sisters that I&a
stop trying to love your body. get angry instead. | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 36
Episode DescriptionAlmost twelve years into recovery and body image is still hard for me sometimes. Pregnancy has made it harder.In this episode I'm getting honest about where I actually am with it — and why "just be grateful for your body" has never been the thing that helps. I walk through a session of my own EMDR therapy, tracing my body image back to a memory from when I was abo
"I relapsed and part of me likes it" — ED recovery Q&A part 3 | recovered-ish ep. 35
Episode DescriptionPart three — the final installment of the listener Q&A before I head out on maternity leave.This one covers the long game of recovery: whether it's possible after decades, whether you'll always live with it in some capacity, relapse guilt, missing the control the eating disorder gave you, the physical side effects nobody warns you about, and how you actually know w
food guilt, triggering friends, and recovering without a team — ED recovery Q&A | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 34
Episode DescriptionPart two of the listener Q&A. You sent in your questions and I'm answering them honestly.This one covers body image and worth, food guilt, figuring out whether a decision is coming from you or the eating disorder, navigating friends who say triggering things, opening up to people you've hidden this from, and what to do if a treatment team isn't accessible to y
[REPLAY] does the eating disorder voice ever go away? | the recovered-ish podcast
Episode DescriptionThis is a replay of one of the most-listened-to episodes of recovered-ish. I'm taking the week off to prep for maternity leave, so no new episode this week — but this one is worth revisiting, especially if you're new here.One of the most common questions I get — from clients, from Instagram, from people deep in the trenches of recovery — is this: does the eating disord
not sick enough, extreme hunger, and finding your why — ED recovery Q&A | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 32
Episode DescriptionYou sent in your questions and I'm answering them — honestly. This is part one of a two-part listener Q&A covering some of the most common and most loaded questions I get about eating disorder recovery.We're getting into ambivalence, finding your why, the "not sick enough" myth, comparison, extreme hunger, lost hunger cues, and how to sit with the panic
stuck in ED recovery — things to try when nothing is working | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 31
Episode DescriptionIf you've been doing all the things — therapy, dietician, meal plan — and still feel like you're spinning your wheels, this episode is for you.In this episode I'm sharing a practical, honest list of things to try when eating disorder recovery feels stuck. These are the gaps I've seen in standard treatment models, the things that have made the biggest differen
it's okay to miss your eating disorder | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 30
Episode DescriptionNobody talks about this part. But it's real, it's common, and it doesn't mean you're doing recovery wrong.In this episode I'm getting into what it actually means when you miss your eating disorder — why it happens, why it makes complete sense, and what to do with that feeling when it shows up.In This Episode:Why missing your eating disorder doesn't
dating in ED recovery — what nobody prepares you for | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 29
Episode DescriptionThis is the episode I've been asked for since the beginning of this podcast — and the one I never thought I'd actually record.Dating in eating disorder recovery is complicated in ways nobody really talks about. The body image stuff. The intimacy stuff. The validation-seeking that can look a lot like the disorder wearing a different mask. And eventually finding someone
the truth about life after eating disorder recovery | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 28
Episode DescriptionThis one was unplanned. My son was in the hospital, life threw a curveball, and I had twenty minutes between sessions to record something real.So that's what this is.In this episode I'm sharing something I've never talked about on the podcast before — and getting honest about what life after recovery actually looks like. Not the highlight reel. The real version, w
"I'm done with recovery" — what that feeling is really telling you | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 27
Episode DescriptionIf you've ever thought "I can't do this anymore" or "I just want my life to stop being about recovery" — this episode is for you.In this episode I'm breaking down the difference between recovery burnout and actually outgrowing your eating disorder, because they can feel almost identical from the inside — and they require completely different re
scales, weight comments, grief, and imposter syndrome — ED recovery Q&A | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 26
Episode DescriptionYou sent in your questions and I'm answering them — honestly, not clinically. This is the real-life picture, not the textbook one.In this episode I'm getting into some of the most common and most loaded questions I receive from people in eating disorder recovery — from whether to look at the scale in treatment, to what to say when someone comments on your weight, to ho
unexpected things my eating disorder taught me | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 25
Episode DescriptionIt feels strange to say, but it's true: my eating disorder taught me things that have actually added to my life. Not the behaviors. Not the rules. But real, paradoxical lessons that I've carried with me into recovery and into the rest of my life.In this episode I'm sharing a casual list of the unexpected things I learned through my eating disorder — about my body,
pregnancy, body changes, and eating disorder recovery — the part nobody talks about | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 24
Episode DescriptionI used to think pregnancy would give me a break from my eating disorder. That the permission to gain weight, to nourish my baby, would make it all feel easy. That's not quite how it went.In this episode I'm getting honest about what body changes in pregnancy actually feel like when you have an eating disorder history — the first trimester appetite chaos, the body dysmo
travel in ED recovery — my honest survival guide | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 23
Episode DescriptionTravel is one of the hardest things you can do in eating disorder recovery. New foods, broken routines, different meal times, swimsuits, pictures — it's a lot. And nobody really talks about how to actually get through it.In this episode I'm sharing my honest survival guide for traveling in ED recovery — from what it looked like when I was deep in my disorder on a famil
why letting go of your eating disorder feels like losing yourself | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 22
One of the biggest blocks in fully recovering from an eating disorder isn't the food. It's identity.In this episode I'm getting into something I've been circling around for a while but never done a full deep dive into — the way an eating disorder becomes a mask, a persona, a way of being seen in the world. And why letting go of it can feel terrifying even when you desperately w
does intuitive eating work in eating disorder recovery? | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 21
Episode DescriptionShort answer: yes. Long answer: it's complicated, it takes time, and it definitely doesn't happen the way most people think it does.In this episode I'm getting into my own journey from restriction, to meal plan, to eventually finding something that actually feels like food freedom — and what every stage of that actually looked like. Including the messy middle, the
fear of weight gain, quasi-recovery, and social eating — your questions answered | recovered-ish with chloe cox
You asked, I answered.I get so many DMs and comments with really good recovery questions that deserve more than a quick reply — so this week I'm doing a rapid fire Q&A covering some of the most common and most important ones I've received.We're getting into comparison, quasi-recovery, fear of weight gain, social eating, family dynamics, book recommendations, and more. This one i
muffins, missing the ED, and finding hope — reading my ED diaries part two | recovered-ish with chloe cox
Back by popular demand — we're back in the journals.In this episode I'm reading more entries from my eating disorder treatment diaries. These are unfiltered, verbatim entries from residential, PHP, and IOP — the rawest, most honest documentation of what recovery actually looked like from the inside.This one goes to some dark places. There are entries about missing the disorder, about fee
my ugliest eating disorder thoughts — and what they actually meant | recovered-ish with chloe cox
Episode DescriptionLast week's episode sparked a lot of conversation online. I posted a clip about eating disorder recovery in the ozempic era and the comments absolutely exploded — and it got me thinking about something I've been wanting to talk about for a while.The thoughts I had in my eating disorder that I'm not proud of. The ones that would probably get me canceled if I posted
what actually causes an eating disorder? | recovered-ish with chloe cox
One of the most common questions I get — from clients, from my own lived experience, from people who have spent years wondering — is this: why me? Why did I get an eating disorder when the people around me didn't?In this episode I'm getting into the real answer. Not the oversimplified version. The actual, nuanced, deeply personal answer — using my own story, my clinical experience, and t
the ozempic era is making ED recovery harder — my honest take | recovered-ish with chloe cox
Episode DescriptionFirst things first — I have some news. Big news. News that explains a lot of the cryptic, tired, off-kilter energy you've been picking up on these last few weeks.I'm pregnant. Baby number two is on the way and she is a girl.But after that announcement, we're getting into something I've been genuinely fired up about — because right now, in 2026, I believe this
why is body image still so hard in recovery — what actually helps | recovered-ish with chloe cox
Honest confession: my body image has been pretty rough lately. And yes, I know — I'm a recovered eating disorder therapist who just last week talked about how quiet my ED voice has gotten. So what gives?In this episode I'm getting real about what bad body image actually looks like for me now, 11 years into recovery. How it's different from the eating disorder voice. What body dysmor
does the eating disorder voice ever go away? | recovered-ish with chloe cox
Episode DescriptionOne of the most common questions I get — from clients, from Instagram, from people deep in the trenches of recovery — is this: does the eating disorder voice ever actually go away?In this episode, I get honest about my own experience with the ED voice: what it sounded like at its worst, how it shifted through different stages of recovery, and where it lives now (spoiler: it&apos
the recovery reality check nobody gives you | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 13
hello, lovely friends. welcome back to recovered-ish.today we’re talking about the part of recovery that i think catches a lot of people off guard:how long it takes. how messy it is. and how discouraging it can feel when you’re doing “everything right” and still not feeling better yet.because i think a lot of people go into recovery expecting it to feel hard for a little while… and then eventually
food guilt is deeper than you think | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 12
hi! welcome back to recovered-ish.today we’re talking about food guilt.but not in the surface-level way it’s usually talked about.because this isn’t just“i feel a little guilty.”this is the kind of guilt that hits after you eat and makes you feel like you need to fix it. immediately.the kind that lingers.the kind that turns into“i shouldn’t have done that” → “i am bad.”and if you’ve ever been stuc
ED lies, identity loss, and rebuilding – reading my ED diaries | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 11
hello, lovely friends. welcome back to recovered-ish.today’s episode is a little different.i was feeling kind of chaotic, kind of scattered, and i knew i did not have it in me to do justice to one of the bigger, heavier topics i had planned. so instead, i did something i honestly never thought i would do.i pulled out my old journals.the actual journals i kept from the depths of my eating disorder
when your body changes in recovery – and how to not spiral about weight gain | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 10
hello, lovely friends! welcome back to recovered-ish.today we’re talking about body changes in recovery and how to cope when weight gain starts to feel huge.because of course this is one of the biggest fears in recovery. most people would be willing to take the risk on healing if they could guarantee their body would stay the same. but that’s not how this works. and even when you know logically th
“good enough” recovery is keeping you stuck | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 9
hello, lovely friends. welcome back to recovered-ish.today we’re talking about quasi recovery.this is the phase where you’re not relapsed. you’re functioning. you’re eating. life looks mostly normal.but the tape is still running.in this episode, i talk about:– what quasi recovery actually is (and how it’s different from relapse) – the “good enough” space that can last for years – rigidity that hid
how to recover when you have no motivation | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 8
hello, lovely friends! welcome back to recovered-ish.today we’re talking about motivation. and more specifically, why it feels so hard to find motivation to recover.i hear this all the time. “i don’t feel motivated.” “i don’t have a strong enough reason.” “i know what to do, but i can’t make myself do it.”and the more i sat with this topic, the more i realized something.motivation works beautifull
control, guilt, calories on menus, and eating “too much” | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 7
hi, my lovely friends. welcome back to recovered-ish.this week’s episode is messy. i’m congested. there’s construction beeping outside my office. it’s a full comedy of errors. but honestly… that feels fitting. recovery is messy too.i did a poll on instagram and you all had so many good questions that i couldn’t pick just one. so we’re doing a recovery buffet. a little bit of this, a little bit of
why relapse is part of recovery (not a failure) | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 6
hi. welcome back to recovered-ish.this episode is about relapse and why i don’t think it means what we’ve been taught to believe it means.relapse is extremely common. and the fact that it’s so common tells me a few things. this is really hard. success in recovery isn’t well defined. and we haven’t figured out eating disorder treatment as well as we think we have.i talk about how relapse usually is
should you exercise in eating disorder recovery? (the answer isn’t what you think) | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 5
today we’re covering one of the most confusing and emotionally loaded topics in eating disorder recovery:exercise.because movement can genuinely help anxiety.and it can also quietly become another way the eating disorder stays in control.in this episode, we talk about the role exercise plays in eating disorders, why stopping movement can feel terrifying, and how to tell the difference between movi
“i’m not sick enough” – your eating disorder’s biggest lie | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 4
hi! welcome back to recovered-ish.this episode is about one of the most common thoughts that keeps people stuck in eating disorders:it’s not that bad.it could be worse.i’m not sick enough for help.we talk about where this belief comes from, why it feels so convincing, and how it’s reinforced by medical providers, mental health systems, social media, and comparison — even when someone’s inner world
the fear of weight gain – and why you can’t just “get over it” | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 3
in this episode, we’re talking about the fear of weight gain — and why you can’t just “get over it.”if you’ve ever thought i want recovery, but i can’t handle my body changing, this episode is for you.we unpack why weight gain can feel like danger (not just discomfort), how avoidance wires fear, and why waiting to feel “okay” before taking action keeps people stuck for years.i also want to name th
my unfiltered eating disorder story | recovered-ish podcast ep. 2
in this episode, i share my eating disorder + recovery story — but not in the “before/after, numbers, shock value” way. i’m not here to give you content you can compare yourself to. i’m here to give you context, meaning, and the parts that actually matter.i talk about the early moments where body awareness and objectification started showing up way before food did, how perfectionism and high achie
is full eating disorder recovery even real? | the recovered-ish podcast | Ep. 1
welcome to the first episode of recovered-ish.in this episode, i share why i started this podcast, what recovered-ish actually means, and why the idea of “full recovery” isn’t as clear-cut as we’re often told.i’m 30 years old, over a decade into eating disorder recovery, and both a therapist and recovery coach. if you asked me today whether i’m fully recovered, my answer wouldn’t be a simple yes o
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