JeezyForreal
Life lessons, stories, and dumb shit that will make you say, "Jeezy?!? Forreal??!"
Episodes
One Day
My story about an attempt to end my self and go on to the next phase. Trigger warning, if you or someone you know is struggling with their mental health please reach out to a loved one, a friend, or a professional. You can also text 988 for support, talk, and other resources. Stay safe.
Turn 2
One of my hardest life lessons learned from some tragic choice
Twice the work
I wanted to share a story from my early weeks in firefighter training. Being so humbled at the time, yet understanding the need to work twice as hard. Shout out to you all for listening to my last episode. Love you all!
Forgiveness
Forgiving is one of the toughest things to try to do. The last couple weeks have tested me for sure. Here is a little more about my journey.
Fin
The Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord. Job 1:21
I'm F@#$ing Tired
update from the last month or so. I am fucking tired. Please reach out to 988 if you or someone you know needs help.
It's Heavy
Recently I had someone I don't know very well or ever met in person reach out in such a kind and thoughtful way. Thank you to those of you who are out there listening to this podcast each week, for the support, the kind words. Please stay strong yourselves! You are all wonderful.
The Graveyard
I wanted to continue sharing my mental health journey. This in particular covers some sensitive material. Please if you or someone you know is struggling, reach out to someone for help. You can text 988 for 24/7 support.
Shit Hit the Fan
Sunday in July
I wanted to share a call I went on as an AEMT working for a fire department at the time. Ultimately this lead me to change jobs, effected my life, etc.
Big 3
Warning this is a very heavy subject to talk openly about. If you or someone you love is needing help, please reach out to or text 988. At the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline. Whether you're facing mental health struggles, emotional distress, alcohol or drug use concerns, or just need someone to talk to, their caring counselors are here for you. You are not alone.
Blossoms
I did this on a whim, my first run, a 5K. I'm sharing my story and aftermath from not training, over exertion, and poor judgement.
March 23rd
Life is full of the ups and downs, even on a birthday. But what's your stance on it? is it all too horrible to even be grateful to God for what you do have? Idk some thoughts from my life recently.
March 9th
Welcome back ya'll to my Podcast! after several months being away and dealing with life's ups and downs. I have made a return to my channel. Thank you all who listen and download my episodes. It's nice to get back on here and share what's been going on.
July 2020
The mindset of saving someone instead of realizing I don’t save anyone, I’m not Jesus, Superman, etc, I’m human. I would merely give someone a better chance of living until they’d get to a hospital.
Special K
My ketamine therapy experience. Hoping this helps answer some questions or concerns someone might have towards this type of treatment.
Bus Driver
Good people come and go. It’s part of life, a bit bitter at times, sad in a way. Move forward.
Still Here
Despite the worst, you, me, survived our worst day(s). You maybe didn't think you would during that time. I shared some of the story of Angela Hernandez from 2018, you can hear more of it on CBSNews.com.
Salvador
My family's origin....well sort of. The whole point of this shit episode is to try to say is sometimes yes it is ok to be secretive sometimes and some its not.
P.S. Jed
A conclusion to the "Dear Jed" message from the last episode. Please beware, trigger warning. If you or someone you know needs help, please reach out to "988".
Dear Jed.......
Sitting down with myself. Talking to myself, Jed, where I am and where I am going. Figuring it out. Please be kind to yourselves. Love yourselves, flaws and all.
Darkness my old friend
my constant companion over the last 5 plus years in life. It's hard to describe it but it's been a great hindrance from enjoy the here and now. The life that could/should be happy is often dark, gloomy.
State of mind
Reach out to 988 if you or someone you know needs help with mental health. This just me reflecting on what I have been in a struggle with.
Journey of Broke Brown man
This mental health journey has been a huge struggle for me. There have been numerous doctor visits, telehealth appointments between work breaks. Medication adjustments again and again. This is my story of how it started and how its been. Hopefully this can help someone in a similar situation.
Lost
Being lost can mean being found to some extent. Lost and Found.
Let the Dead Bury the Dead
This is episode is with regards to my Grandmother's recent passing. It is not intended to be a way to condone someone passing away. It is however a way for me to reflect and close a chapter in my life sort of speak. Please reach out to your loved ones and let them know they matter.
It's Enough
A few things I've been reflecting on from relationships with so called family, relatives, to work and success. Please realize life is one day at a time. Breathe, it'll be ok.
Same Old Shit
One step forward, two steps back. Falling back into entertaining shit, things, people, that I know aren't good for me. Here's the details. Jeezy Forreal?
Self Love
Talking about my personal struggle of straying from something simple. Selfcare isn't being selfish. It is necessary to be your 100% self. Make time for it.
Cut you off
Who do you have in your circle? is it someone that is supportive? positive? helpful? loyal? It can be a tough thing to let go of someone you are attached to. But if the juice is not worth the squeeze....think about it.
Israel
The uncertain is a scary place. I was reflecting on my leaving Egypt story from these last 6 months. Growing out of a thing, or place, situation, job, relationship, letting it go is often for the best. Embrace it.
Week After
Grateful I survived such a dark time in my life. Thank you to my family, my sister. My old friend from a previous job. It is such a strange thing to be able to listen back to this from a year ago. At the time I didn't feel right sharing this, now I do.
Growth
Being consistent sometimes looks like a waste of time from the outside.
Check
Through the simple single moves we make, we don't always realize the enormity of those collectively. Failure can be the greatest teacher.
Unlearn
It is interesting how our experiences good or bad can shape our view of our lives, and what we accomplish.
RCA
The toughest thing I had to physically go through was becoming a Firefighter. Here is my experience with going through the RCA, Class 78. Sometimes God will tell you through the obstacles in front of you what to do.
May 1st
A very difficult day in May of this year. If you know anyone that needs help, needs to talk to someone please reach out to 988.
After Prime
After over a year of getting back to a good spot, I wanted to share my departure experience at Amazon.
Hiatus
It's been so long since I recorded something. Stay tune for more.
Luke 11:24-26
Mind Games
Lord we Know what we are
Lord we know what we are we don't know what we may be.
It is what it is
Perhaps it’s empathy or the fact that I’ve felt what it’s like to hurt from being sad, lonely, broke, forgotten, that makes me want to do something?
Nothing without the Certs
Is your worth defined by your job status? education? or does the type of values and characteristics you have and are, matter more?
No Apologies
Is it ego? Is it not wanting to look weak? I took to heart some sound advice on how to deal with people close to me, who won't admit their wrong doing and ask forgiveness.
Wear The Crown
Weary rest the head that wears the crown. Shout to Stephen Covey, 7 Habits of Highly Effective People.
You are what you eat
Are you struggling with a Black and White mindset? are you losing color to your life? Take a second and think about the beauty in the journey, hopefully you'll find something? Shout out to Dr Kristin Neff and her book "Self Compassion".
Taking The L
Taking the L in life sucks. Recently I've had to take the "L". It's a shitty feeling but perhaps some good can come from it?
Snakes are Snakes
On this episode I share the story of "The Little Boy and the Rattlesnake" by Stephen C. Schultz.
Fruitless Dream
A dream about looking and searching for fruit in the wrong places....
Beast Style
This past week I tried out MrBeast Burgers. Here are my thoughts on the Virtual Restaurant and overall experience.
Utah Facade
Living in a state that is predominately religious you'd think it would be a kinder, more accepting place, unfortunately it's not.
Reservoir
My Demons
Please be aware, this episode I talk about my struggle with Suicide. If you know someone that needs help or you need help please text 988 and you'll be connected with professionals and resources. Stay safe.
The Next Thing
The chase for the next thing, and the next thing, and the next…when does it end? Jeezy Forreal?
Mental Check
My mental health check came at a time when I wasn't expecting or wanting. Do what's best for you and your mental health. Text 988 for help and to be connected to someone with resources.
