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Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
This podcast is part of the Traumatized Motherfuckers' Research Project, offering bite-sized summaries of in-depth research on Complex PTSD. It combines peer-reviewed research with irreverent dark humor to explore trauma recovery without the usual bright sides. The show addresses the complicated experience of building a life around trauma, relearning relationships, and reimagining the future in manageable chunks. It also promotes a larger project with longer episodes, workbooks, and a private community for those seeking more comprehensive support.
Episodes
pub pod 6.7 Stellate Ganglion Blocks
What links treatment unresponsive PTSD, chronic pain, and GI issues? What if they could all be treated with one minimally invasive procedure? Let's talk Central Sensitization and the cutting-edge Stellate Ganglion Block treatment currently used in VA settings.Free video!Free course version!Long form nerd version w/ research excerpts and face!All the free courses! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/pri
Pub Pod 6.6: Childhood Emotional Neglect, Somatization, and all your adult problems
Research on the PTSD-throat disorder connection revealed something unexpected. Do somatization, self-sabotage, and unfulfilled living all come down to childhood emotional neglect? And how!Find more quick n dirty summaries of research at Free Vids Stream!When you're ready to go deeper find those research details at Patreon Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
Pub Pod 6.5 Walking Style, Body Clues, and Revictimization
What helps human predators detect human prey? We talk about revictimization and the subtle ways our bodies give us away to perpetrators. Time to learn about the Victim's Gait.Free Vids Stream!Watch it! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
Announcing! The Re-Release of Traumatized Motherfuckers
RELEASED from behind the paywall! A huge announcement for Motherfuckers. Follow, rate, review, share:Apple Podcasts!Spotify!Deezer!Research & creator support:Patreon Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
6.4 DnD: Dystopian Dating vs. Women
It's an overiew of men, women, trans and non-binary dating challenges we researched this month - and then let's talk about 5 unique anecdotal obstacles for the ladies in this bonus episode release from behind the paywall.To the research! patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
6.3 Dating in Dystopia: Jaws Themed Dating | PUWBs & Sharks in Fish's Clothing
Psychoeducation is the brightest point to come from Dystopia. Right guys? Right? ...Or has it been creating stronger predators and overconfident amateur fishermen? Today we talk about the Wellness shared reality and how it's impacting online dating, including the creation of annoying PUWBs floating all around.Duh-Dun Duh-DunVide-Yo!Free Courses! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more info
6.2 Dating in Dystopia 01: Emotional Masturbation & Addictions to Fake Relationships
This month in the Patreon feed we're talking romantic relationships and all the ways they go immediately wrong. In this recording we rap about emotionally masturbating as it crosses over with weird attachments & forming fake relationships as a coping mechanism - dooming any real relationship that might emerge to fail. And let's talk about the societal danger of protectively doping instead of a
6.1 Time Turrors and Disturtions (A Month of Fear-Work)
A month full of dealing with fear and determining who to be. In this release from the patreon stream, we talk about the terrors of time when you have a traumatized brain. Inconsistency, lapses, wormholes and sandtraps... we live in temporal funhouses. Let's talk about how an unstandard relationship with time affects our relationships and what to do about it.Video! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/pr
5.12.2 Top 5 Life Lessons of 2025
Not to call it 'experiential wisdom,' but... if 5 things were gained in 2025?HAPPY NEW YEAR FUCKERCome have a personal hang at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers - free face streaming video reflecting on 2025 out now! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
5.12.1 Top 5 Lit Lessons of 2025
Says it all. These are the most impact-making findings in the research conducted 2025.HAPPY NEW YEAR FUCKERCome have a personal hang at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers - free face streaming video reflecting on 2025 out now! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
5.11 Cognitive Basis of Depression
'Stop seeing everything so negatively." they say. But the cognitive behaviors underlying depression don't allow it. Let's talk about mental reactions and sticky patterns that outweigh false brightsides.VideoWorkbook!CoursesummaryThis conversation delves into the cognitive basis of depression, focusing on how neural networks, memory games, language, cognitive inhibition inhibition, outdated working
5.10 Back to High School: Secret Sources of Peer Pressure in the 2020s
"Peer Pressure is a high school problem." Or is it? Let's talk about adult brains drunk on social influence through the illusions and purposeful manipulations of the internet.Video! summaryThe conversation explores the pervasive effects of internet influence and peer pressure on society, highlighting how these factors have radicalized identities and impacted human psychology. Algorithms are partic
5.9 Costs of Impression Management
If Facades of Conformity feel a bit much, how about Impression Management strategies? Let's talk about common strategies, the risks vs. rewards, and negative return on energetic investments. VIDEO FORMCourse form!summaryThis conversation delves into the themes of conformity and impression management, exploring how individuals often sacrifice their true selves to fit societal expectations. It discu
5.8 Facades of Conformity (FOCs)
It's a summary episode! What have we been talking about lately? Facades of Conformity as they overlap with CPTSD, RSD, and life-destruction.Free Video!summary Let's talk about environmental mental illness, Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (RSD), and the Facades of Conformity (FOCs) that individuals often adopt in various "supervisory" relationships. The discussion delves into the emotional toll of FO
5.7 Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria (RSD) x CPTSD Life Experiences
The RSD - "typical CPTSD experience" overlap is deep and wide. Let's talk about shutting down life, expression, and healing from heightened rejection sensitivity.Video! (freeee)summaryWe explore the intricate relationship between Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (RSD) and Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD), delving into various manifestations of RSD, including agoraphobia, challenges in s
5.6 Pub Ep! Environ-Mental Illness: Fear vs. Anxiety, Stress, Phobia, Paranoia
Video!let's talk about environ mental illness, discussing how external stimuli and personal experiences contribute to psycho-emotional disruptions. Today, featuring a discussion emphasizing the importance of understanding anxiety, differentiating between various emotional states such as fear, stress, anxiety, phobia, and paranoia, and not being a dick to yourself on the other end.Free releases &am
5.5 Behaviors for Preventing PTSD
We can't prevent trauma, but we can help ourselves prevent long-term disordering in the aftermath. Here's the ultra brief rundown of behaviors to prevent PTSD.Video Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
5.4 Practical Ways to Regulate Your Nervous System
FREE VIDEO!Coming off a natural disaster trauma, let's talk about 47 *practical* ways to rebalance your nervous system.... that aren't all "yoga and breathing deeply." Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
5.3 Boundaries to allow compassionate, love, and self-existence
VIDEO (FREEEEEE)Compassion requires protection in the form of relationship-allowing boundaries. read: not relationship-ending rules. What are boundaries, how do we set them, and how do we make sure they're enacted? Talking inner and outer boundaries to separate their shit from yours, so love can exist. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
CHILL SOUNDS for/from an unchill week
So my CNS has been plugged to a 50amp this week, hburs?Gratefully heard some sounds under the near-full moon that swept a bitta anxiety awayHave an immersive walk and some guided visual breaths with Marcus and meIt's a predawn stroll through waterfalls and frogs, break glass in case of nerves on fireGoin nature zen, Fuckers😮💨🌱💦🌊🐸🌕✨Video Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
5.2 Trauma Perspectives & Egos
A VIDEOMemories detached from the whole -> views too big or too small which lock the brain into patterned behaviors and outcomes. Talking perspective resizing and generational ego acquisitions in our Feb drop.And for all the unfolding expansions? Come check patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
5.1 STRESS | Societal Trauma x CPTSD Management Begins
Free VideoIt's time! To support ourselves by applying everything we've learned in 5 years of research together. Today: stress utilization.On the market for more applied trauma care? patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers for the community stream Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
4.12 Your Haunted Self: DISASSOCIATION
A FULL LENGTH SHARE! Let's talk about the directions of disassociation and what to do about the pattern of continually ditching this bitch.VIDEO HEREHAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
4.11 Exploring Yer Haunted self pt 1: STRESS, BIG EMOS, MISALIGNMENTS, EMBARRASHAMING MEMORIES
What waits inside your self? STRESS, BIG EMOTIONS, MISALIGNMENTS, AND HUMILIATING MEMORIES, anyone? Let's summarize these stops on our spooktacular self-adventure. VIDEYUM!For the full ride, including DISASSOCIATION, the WHAT'S NEXTS, and FEAR check patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckersHappy holiday season❄️☃️❤️🔥leave a holiday tip Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
BONUS Entering Yer HAUNTED self 👻 Choose your own spookventure begins!
We're doing something extra 💀 It's a halloween, election, and holiday season special! 💀 Today we begin exploring our abandoned selves and exorcising awaiting demons.What's in store when we reconnect with our lives? Stress, the big negative feels, constant disassociation attempts, horrifying memories of self, tense misalignments between beliefs and reality, the "what's nexts?", and FEAR... of self
4.10 Reconnecting with your haunted self
Being with you... isn't an innate skill after trauma. And yet, we must, or we'll never recover. Take this long treat of an episode to start practicing your self-work. video version! (free!) Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
4.9 Obstacles to Actual self-Love After Trauma
The filthiest words: love yourself. 🤮 Why does trauma create barriers between us and... not hating us? Talkin' lost relationships, criteria for love, loss of self, and the endless self scrutiny created by post-traumatic judgments. It's a BIG EPISODE with some BIG ANNOUNCEMENTS - grab your pepto and let's talk about "self-love-y."WATCH IT HERE Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more informa
4.8 Self Compassion; the Daily Battle for Recovery
Education and Responsibility are important for t-recovery... But progress peters when self-punishment predominates. Without self-compassion, regression becomes reality. Let's talk about the requirement for self-compassion and 5 ways to do it.video! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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4.7 Major Image-Distorting self-Defenses [Splitting and Projective Identification]
When life serves conflictual and confusing information, our brains simplify it to survive... and fuck us over in the long-run. Let's talk about the "ALL GOOD" and "ALL BAD" self-defense mechanisms of Splitting and Projective Identification, what function they serve as children & adults, and how they create shitass trauma-bound lives down the line.Catch the FREE VIDEO PRESENTATION here. Just se
4.6. Acting out, Help-rejecting complaining, and Passive Aggression; The (most) Immature Defenses
Ready to learn about the maladaptive tendencies of your most difficult relational partners? When we don't believe we're "entitled" to a need or emotion, we vent it into (unwise) action. Let's discuss the immature cognitive patterns we/others may still be utilizing to keep our brains "safe." We'll cover the lowest level self-defense mechanisms: Acting Out, Help-Rejecting Complaining, and Passive Ag
4.5 Narcs, Defense Mechanisms, & (non)Recovery: Intellectualizing, Rationalizing, and Reactionary Decision Making
We've learned that narcs don't generally recover because of their "creative narration" abilities. Now, let's talk about some of the ways they spin those stories. Today, we start our examination of self-defense mechanisms by looking at the purposes of Intellectualization and Rationalization. Then, we ask the question: SO HOW SMART ARE THEY? And discuss the distinct Thought Processing limitations of
4.4. Pathological Structuring of Narcissists (Or, No Integrity without Integration)
They'll shake your hand while pissing on your leg, plead and then pulverize promises, and generally give the sense that they're one hundred people who share a face. But why?Let's talk about narcissist personality structuring that ranges from neurotic to psychopathic, but never hits the mark of "maturity." Meanwhile, creating the condition I've titled simply: There is no Integrity without Integrati
4.3. Healing with "Adaptive Narcissism" and Uniqueness | Leveraging Stigma for Permissive self-Healing
"Just feel good about your authentic self and don't let anyone wreck your recognition of specialness." Right. Let's talk about what may be holding us back from achieving this safe, centered, self-supportive, resilience-boosting psychological station, and the easiest way to achieve the "healthy self" that's never been otherwise defined. Adaptive Narcissism. Plus, we'll be discussing how AN relates
4.2. Filial Obligation Narratives, Ambivalence, Perception, and Guilt
Why is the decision to sacrifice or save our brains so difficult to make? Let's talk about subconscious narratives we probably all carry, the ambivalence-guilt connection, and the power of perception on caregiving burden. Find the transcript at t-mfrs.com Looking for the 9 full episodes on this topic? Hit up the Filial Obligation Collection on patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers. Need some
4.1. Making of a Vulnerable Narcissist
A big 'nouncement; so long TMFRS! Then let's talk about what constitutes a VulNarc versus "a person with CPTSD." Where does the chronic manipulation come from? How are recovery resources used for trauma-unhealing? What's up with the hostility and antagonism?.Lots to cover in this mashup of "time, space, and energy" meets "VulNarcs" and "trauma-selves.
3.12b. Sex on Parts and Survival Programs
This year we spoke about Intimacy. Now it's time to confront *Intimacy.* Let's look at the discrepant programs that live inside of us, gathered across a lifetime of adaptation to extreme events and unhealthy narratives. We're talking Sexual Healing vs. Internal Family Systems and deprived needs. Need this conversation more than you knew? Check out patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers f
3.12a. Transference, Projection, Monkey-barring, Displacement
We're tying up loose ends in our discussion of relationships! Today, discussing the cognitive copy-pastes we accidentally carry out between past and present relationships - and they ways they set us back in our recovery goals while creating abusive dynamics. Need more thoughts about transference in all its forms? I've got another hour of material and an animated vid on this one. Check patr
Self-abandonment vs your best Spanksgiving
Let's cut the brainy shit, the real answer to surviving the holidays is not abandoning yourself.Need more holiday support? Don't we all. For all the other holiday freebies, just hit up patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers. Search "holiday" to find releases from the past for no cost, or subscribe to access the pre-wrangled Holiday Survival Collection for your listening ease.Stay safe, support yours
3.11. Ten Destructive Responses that Set Off Trauma Defenses
Back to NonViolent Communication! Here are 10 things the experts say destroy our attempts at vulnerable disclosures and requests. Just in time for the holidays, let's talk about why these conversational reactions burn our t-brains and why people are programmed to use them, anyways. For the full transcript and all the doods, check t-mfrs.com and get ready to peruse for hours.To jump into the fu
3.10. Chronic deprivation, self-sabotage, psychosomatic illness, and abuse dynamics
We learn to neglect ourselves at an early age and then everything goes to hell forever after. Stuck in unfixable suffering, toiling away with ineffectual attempts to comfort ourselves, and possibly... destroying our own lives, in an attempt to end the self-deprivation through backdoor methods. Let's talk about needs and what happens when we learn there are "required" versus "una
3.9b Ending Deprivation and Rehabbing yer Brain with NonViolent Communication
"Depression is the reward we get for being good children."NVC helps yer relationships, sure. But it'll also rewire your t-brain trashhabits, emotional misunderstandings, and shit perspectives if you use it solo.Let's talk about the roots of the worst of us; our unmet needs and beliefs that deprivation = goodness. Which create vicious cycles of projection, unfulfillment, and relat
3.9a NonViolent (Effective) Communication
Ever feel "unheard"? Well, here's the key to getting your point across and sparking collaboration rather than opposition.Today, we're talking about NonViolent Communication (NVC) - the 4 step framework for communicating effectively about emotions and unmet needs without stimulating defensive reactions or leaning on your own deeply ingrained control tactics... And so much more. Wa
3.8b. Shitpologies (AKA non-apology apologies)
So, how do we apologize "the right way"... Rather than creating MORE damage through half-assed "I'm sorrys"?Today, let's talk about the 5 points for offering a real apology for sake of true relational healing... And four examples of how NOT to apologize, unless you actually want to make the emotional abandonment experience worse for your partner. Looking for 10 more exa
3.8a. The Key to Healing Relational Ruptures (and two people)
How DO we heal what's been broken? I've got a short phrase for you - it's what we've all needed to hear all along. And let's talk about the timeless wounds patched up by real apologies, as we prepare to talk about shitty apologies next time.Hail yerSelf and Cheers Fuckers.Git the transcript version of this post at t-mfrs.com and check out some doods while you're there. Catc
Extra "survival Fs" to give in relationship; Fronting and Feigning
We all know about the 4 survival Fs at this point. But how about the additional F reactions- Fronting and Feigning?Let's talk about learned reactions that keep us feeling safe in relationship... while rotting out the connection, engaging manipulation tactics, and using fear as a self-defense.Looking for more "real relationship talk"? Well that's the order of the month, over in the private podcast
3.7. Determining "Are they a good relational partner?" before committing
We've talked a lot about committing fully to relationships and overcoming our conflicts together, through examining the subconscious wounds that actually underly our relational upsets. But here's my question: Is that realistic?Today, we talk about getting clearer on the contents of our potential and current relationship partners' preprogramming, through checking our own somatic experie
3.6b Overcoming spiraling conflicts in trauma-impacted relationships
Ever feel like "the issue" isn't really "the issue" in relational conflict? That's because the real issue is buried under layers of protective instincts that keep us unable to fully connect or communicate... but very capable of fighting, endlessly.Let's talk about "conscious relationships" and their trauma recovery utility, as we discuss methods for resolv
3.6a. Lost love and authentic connection; the fragmented brain explanation
Why do we start close relationships and love connections feeling one way... only to watch them disintegrate, become survival-based, and turn into "resentment"? Let's walk through the easiest explanation ever told; pulling in our Internal Family Systems education to discuss the greatest relational obstacle of them all.Looking for a lot more relational talk? Good news! It's been th
3.5 Shadow parts vs. successful relationships | Internal VIT for healthy connections
We MFs struggle to begin or maintain healthy relationship dynamics, with a lot of externalized finger pointing about why. "Abusers just flock to me." But the truth is, the abuse recreation is mutual and it all starts in the place we attempt to willfully ignore - inside ourselves, within our preferred and hated personality aspects. Let's talk about acquisition of conscious and unconsc
Special release | "Ah Hell Naw" Learned obstacles to forming close relationships
Why don't we sign up for close connections anymore? Especially after learning about our CPTSD patterns? It's an episode pulled from the private Fort! Let's talk about relationship hangups from an experiential standpoint, integrating what we've heard from the research with real life brain operations to demystify disorganized feelings about closely connecting with others. Check out
3.4 Vulnerability, Intimacy, and Trust Issues in Relationship
"So how do you feel about relationships? Complicated? You want them? You despise them? You fear them? You long for them? You try them? You exit them rapidly? Or you try to? You get stuck in them? And haunted by cycles of unfulfillment?"Today, let's talk about the obstacles we face when considering relationships or landing ourselves in them. The ways we attempt to protect ourselves fr
3.3. Subconscious Self-loathing
So you're doing your damndest to be "your best self." Maybe you're confident and comfortable in your identity these days. But, at the same time, you still find that self-condemnation is a big part of your day to day. Why? Let's talk about self-judgment taking place on subconscious levels. How your identities mask the ongoing self-loathing that created them. And how to heal that shit, once and
Hardening versus Healing
Today, sharing a mini essay I wrote for another platform, where controversial perspectives are the topic of conversation.In so much of this "trauma recovery game" we're inspired to hunker down against past patterns. But is that really healing?Want more Traumatized Motherfuckers? Join the Patreon to get hundreds of past episodes, weekly releases, and a part in supporting this DIY show. Or find more
3.2. Healing self-contradicting brains with Internal Family Systems (IFS) Therapy
Ever feel like you've got a whole household of people contained in one skull? Fighting, just like they did in your family home? Turns out, that's normal. Today, let's talk about Internal Family Systems and the roles cemented in your brain. Protectors, Exiles, Distractors, and their vicious cycles that leave us feeling out of control of our own noggins. Plus, how to work with them, instead of
3.1. Loneliness and Isolation in CPTSD
Surprise, we're back! Keeping up with the private stream's topic of the month, we're here to talk about Loneliness. Let's discuss the varieties of loneliness, the trends that start in childhood and pervade a lifetime, and the separate condition known as Isolation. Plus, how being a relational castaway can actually benefit our post-traumatic growth (whaaat). Looking for all the details and communit
2.12. Challenges of breaking the cycle | AKA - generational upset, NC, a new world
Let's talk about the opposition we face during trauma recovery - namely, from our social contacts who aren't ready to have their own histories and perspectives pulled into focus. And, let's discuss the reason why the battle is worth all the effort.Don't give up, brave Motherfucker. Remember that what you're doing matters. For everyone. ✊Related eps: perspective series, filial obligaton series, bra
2.11. Forming new lives | AKA - reintegration efforts for lasting change
So we do this painful and energetically expensive inner work. And then what? Return to the same old lives? Naw, Fucker. That's the fastest way to hit "revert to draft." Once the integrative inner work starts, the outer labor has to keep up. Let's talk about supporting our brain changes by building new lives, to enable further cognitive evolution as we keep stepping. Related eps: inner an
2.10. The resources needed for brain recovery | AKA - mediums for new perspectives
Aiming for recovery, but finding that you never have the conditions to make progress?Let's talk about what it takes for a brain to heal. The basic mediums of life that most of us are unable to access in our traumatized society. Related eps: time distortion series, "rat cage" societal trauma series, inner and outer work series, refind yer Self series--- Send in a voice message: https://podcast
2.9. Loss of functionality | AKA - overcompensation, collapse, resisilence not resistence
A brain is busy with all those survival processes running in the background and the second-by-second management of triggers and symptoms. So what happens when that system gets overloaded?Today, we're talking about the pattern of symptom masking/ignorance, overcompensation, loss of functionality, and eventual collapse. And how does "resilience vs. resistance" change our perspective?Related eps: bra
2.8. Internal battles | AKA - healing your disintegrated brain
Back to this self-limiting conversation... what happens when our "selves" are limited by incohesion? When we have inner wars over "the right thing," or oppositional memory and emotional responses confusing every issue?Let's talk about the battle that rages inside. Revisiting "parts" and how they're the crux of pulling your shit together for long-lasting recovery. Related eps: fragmentati
2.7. Self-limiting modes of existence | AKA - life halting programs and parts battles
You've decided to enact new behaviors to change your life... only to find you can't actually put them into practice. You stall out and revert to old programs to your own bewilderment. Something is stalling progress from the inside.Let's talk about self-limiting strategies for living spawned by trauma. And the ways they become "default modes" of daily existence. Related eps: self-limitati
2.6. Default Mode Network (DMN) | AKA - memory throwbacks, bodily disconnection, and sub-sensory fear
So we all have a penchant for fear, it's a foundational aspect of PTSD. But what happens when our brain relay system is wonky due to those adaptations? Let's talk about the faulty DMN. How it throws us into disjointed memories, disables continuous autobiographical recall, explains poor sense of somatic (bodily) self, and interacts with those pesky sub-sensory threshold fear triggers. Reflect
2.5. Entrapment, defeat, suicidality, and relationships | AKA - it's not worth your whole life
We know, trauma brains create patterns that can stall us out and keep us stuck. This is especially true when talking "relationships" of all forms. Unfortunately, leading many to feel permanently socially-tethered, personally incapable, and suicidal, instead.Today, let's talk about how relationships often corrupt our lives, how to re-work them, and when it's time to say goodbye - all for recov
2.4. Filial obligation and family re-immersion | AKA - the family system trap
The time comes for all of us; the family call to duty. And then what. We know it's going to trigger unwanted trauma reactions. But resisting often feels futile, immoral, and socially-punishing.Let's talk about the dangers of family re-immersion for a healing trauma brain and what we can do to protect ourselves before the filial phonecalls start. Related eps: filial obligation and entrapment s
2.3. “Perspective” | AKA - gaslighting, cognitive self-corruption, time distortions
Perspective; A word with many meanings, depending on who's speaking it. Namely, the bane of, "that's just ONE perspective."Let's talk about the real definition of the word, how it pertains to post-traumatic stress development, where attention vs. willful ignorance comes into play, and how no one can ever have your irreplicable perspective. Trust your guts, Fuckers. You know where you've been. 
2.2. Retraumatization, backslides, and non-linear progress | AKA - current cult.ural triggerings
Have you been struggling to make meaningful progress? Well, these global events don't help. Especially when they feel so... family-iar... to our trauma brains. Let's talk about the semi-accepted phases of trauma recovery - destabilization, processing, and integration. And how societal systems keep bringing us back to square one.Related eps: "the rat cage" societal trauma series, ref
2.1. “Not bad enough to be trauma” | AKA - the aftermath is what matters
Ever doubt that "it was significant enough to count as t-word"? Well, the key word is significance. Let's break this down simply and talk about what really creates PTSD; our brains' subjective experience of fear and the meaning we give events (and ourselves) in the aftermath. Related eps: filial obligation and entrapment series, perspective series--- Send in a voice message: https:/
Intro to Season Two
We're back! Let's wrap up a year of in-depth trauma research and community insights with a new season. Free holiday support Discord server: https://discord.gg/5AYuCuQRhn Public holiday episodes (browse or search "holiday"): patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers Full episode guide: https://www.t-mfrs.com/epguideHo-ho-ho, Motherfucker. I'll see you there. --- Send in a voice mes
1.13. Recovery
Convinced you aren't individually damaged, doomed, or destitute yet? Sick. But that comfort doesn't do much good if your brain, behaviors, and life don't change along with the perspective. Here are 10 steps for CPTSD recovery and your life redesign. Keeping in mind, "different strokes for different folks," "different gains for different brains." Let the experiment begin. See you on
1.12. Loss of "Self," Learned Helplessness, and Executive Functioning
Do you edit your daily activities to feel "acceptable," to the detriment of your own wants, needs, and goals? Can you see yourself clearly from the outside, on one timeline? Do you have the power to "drop out" of your brain and observe its activities as a separate observer? Maybe not.Today, we're talking about the loss of "Self" - the most flowery and easily dismissible of the CPTSD hallmarks
1.11. Fawning, Anxious Attachment, and Enmeshment
What's the difference between "being a good person" and sacrificing your whole life to support others? In most of our families and social structures... there isn't one. Which makes it pretty hard to name the problem, re-examine your instincts to serve, or stand up for your right to operate your own brain. Today, let's talk about one of the most ignored and normalized survival responses. Fawni
1.10. Family of Origin & Yer Brain Programming
Here's a holiday release for ya. Merry whatever-you-do, and let's talk about families fuckin things up. Mental illness seems to run in families, do'nnit? Turns out, there's some biological mirroring mechanisms you might want to hear about. Why are you "the way you are"? It's because of them. Why do they refuse to see your progress and personality realistically? It's also because of
1.9. The Trauma Trap: Avoidance, Rigidity, and Trauma-Bubbles
So, let's say your brain is on fire 24/7. Your body is doing the same. You're uncomfortable every moment, from the inside and out. You, very literally, are too sick and tired to deal with another obstacle or point of pressure. So... You reasonably start avoiding sources of strain. But then it gets unreasonable. What happens if everything is deemed "risky"?Talking the eventual extreme outcome of un
1.8. Losing Control of Your Brain: Triggers, Spirals, Addiction, Self-harm, Bad habits
What's the difference between your past high-functionality and current fears of "losing your fucking mind"? Bad information that was programmed into faulty neural networks being activated more regularly in ways that override the accessibility of the "human brained" prefrontal cortex. The good news is, you can fix it. Your brain isn't "you" or a reflection of your value. And it's just a s
1.7. Anxiety, Obsession, and ADHD; The High Energy Hellscape
Time to talk about perhaps the largest post-traumatic complaint. It's time for Anxiety. (When isn't it?) Let's also chat about those highly related conditions often driven by anxiety... Obsession and Scattered Thinking. The link between all of them that might help you with managing the system? Neutralizing the "high energy" changes they create in your brain and body, plus rewiring that brain to re
1.6. Depression, Shame, Rumination; The Low Energy Gang
You know the team well. They all travel together. One feeds into and strengthens the next. And getting away from them feels inescapable. It's a Traumatized Motherfucker's worst friends; rumination, shame, and depression. Which cognitive hellhole comes first? Current models aren't certain. All we know is, this horrible-thought-horrible-feeling cycle is one hell of a ride. "The end r
1.5. Life-Numbing Dissociation
Emotional numbing. Over-intellectualizing. Depersonalization. Derealization. Fragmented Personalities. Let's talk about all the ways that our brains try to protect us from stress, overwhelm, and danger. The ways we might see this as "adaptive skill." And the ways we might not even realize dissociation is happening, by half-brained design. Looking to learn more? You know what to do. Go to t-mf
1.4. Actually-Effective Therapy
I know, therapy probably hasn’t been a walk in the park so far. If you’re here, you’re probably looking for more information, more help, or more reassurance that you’re not the only one looking for a way out. But there's no real substitute to having a professional to keep you grounded, processing the right materials, and creating personalized progress goals in line with your individual struggles.A
1.3b. Yer Life on CPTSD
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1.3a. Yer Brain on CPTSD
Let's talk about everyone's favorite new buzzdiagnosis - Complex Trauma (CPTSD). What is it? Why is it so difficult to name? And what does it really do to your brain, as far as creating self-destructive neural structures that can undermine your lifetime?Here's a biological / neuropsychological breakdown of life on undiagnosed CPTSD, AKA living with "pervasive relational trauma." In a nutshell
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