In Totality with Megan Ashley
In Totality with Megan Ashley is a Christian podcast that encourages believers to live a life wholly devoted to God. Host Megan Ashley shares wisdom rooted in Scripture, discussing topics like faith, prayer, obedience, and purpose. Through vulnerability and transparency, she creates a safe space for listeners to reflect and grow spiritually. The podcast offers practical advice for both seasoned believers and those new to their faith journey.
Episodes
EP 132: Contend with Pastor Philip Anthony Mitchell | In Totality Podcast
Heyy guys! We’re just getting back from ACCESS 2026 and we were so blessed to witness the Lord’s doing with 80K saints under one roof yearning and calling out for Him. The Lord met us all and so we’re just grateful to have been in the building and witness such an amazing experience!With that, this week we have a special surprise as I’m joined by none other than my big brother and Pastor,
EP 131: The Power of Petty Prayers: Forgiveness, Bitterness, Justice & Healing
You’ve forgiven them, so why does it still hurt? This week Nona returns to discuss her new book, The Power of Petty Prayers, and the difference between forgiving what someone did and healing from the impact it left behind. We explore what David’s prayers in the Psalms teach us about being honest with the Lord, trusting Him for justice, and surrendering fleshly desires to get even.I a
EP 130: Mental Wellness & Christianity with Emy More Brookins
Can we love Jesus and still struggle with anxiety, depression, or OCD? This week I’m joined by Emy Moore Brookins, host of the Saved Not Soft podcast and someone I love like a little sister, for a conversation about mental health, church hurt, and trusting God through suffering.Emy opens up about recent diagnoses, her experience with spiritual abuse, and how she’s navigating therapy
EP 129: Stop Waiting for God to “Get Them Back”: Forgiveness, Mercy & Vindication
This week on the show Jay, Jordan, Nicole and I talk through the difference between vengeance and vindication, what Scripture says about loving our enemies, and how remembering the mercy we’ve received through Christ changes the way we respond to offense.One question really challenged me: What if our vindication actually looks like having peace, sleeping at night, and continuing in what G
EP 128: Christian Influencers, Deconstruction & the Danger of Casual Christianity
Deconstructing Christianity isn’t always the same as walking away from God. Sometimes it could mean examining legalism, controlling traditions, or inherited beliefs so we can understand what Scripture actually teaches.But what happens when we stop deconstructing false teaching and begin deconstructing the truth itself, rebuilding faith around our comfort, desires, or the opinions of peopl
EP 127: When Heroes Fall: How to Heal When Christian Leaders Disappoint You Ft. Lisa Fields
What happens when a pastor, mentor, or Christian leader you admire falls, and your trust is shaken with them?This week on In Totality, I’m joined by Christian apologist, author, and founder of the Jude 3 Project, Lisa Fields. Tune in for a conversation about healing after the people we admire disappoint us, without losing our faith, ignoring the harm done, or abandoning accountability.Lis
EP 126: When God Moves Suddenly: Waiting, Obedience & Answered Prayer
Hey Guys! This week on In Totality, I’m back with Jay, Jordan, and Nicole in my new home, reflecting on God’s faithfulness through a long season of prayer, waiting, closed doors, and unexpected provision.For nearly two years, I prayed about where my boys and I should live, where they should attend school, and what God’s next step was for our family. There were opportunities that fell thro
EP 125: Honor Thy Mother: Healing Mother Wounds Without Ignoring the Pain
Ok family, I have a treat for all of us that I'm excited to share with you, and I mean ECSTATIC!This week on In Totality, I’m joined by bestselling author, Bible teacher, psychotherapist, a daughter, a wife, and a mother, and so much more, Dr. Sarita T. Lyons! And guess what!? She's here with her new book, Honor Thy Mother, that's just released TODAY as this episode airs!Many of us carry
EP 124: Stop Trying to Get Even: Hurt, Forgiveness & Trusting God’s Justice
Hey Fam! In Totality is back this week and I'm here with the team for a conversation about forgiveness, anger, and the call of Romans 12: “Vengeance belongs to Me; I will repay.”Forgiveness sounds beautiful until the wound is fresh and the apology never comes. So, today, I open up about my struggle with wanting to defend myself, have the last word, or “get a lick back” when I fe
EP 123: Put Your Armor On: How to Keep Fighting When You’re Weary
This week, Jordan, Jay, and Nic join in for a conversation about spiritual warfare, repentance, and what it means to put on the full armor of God every day.After reflecting on the battles the Lord has carried us through, I realized that endurance is not passive. Sometimes we become so weary in our faithfulness that we stop fighting. Other times, we become so confident about the battles we
EP 122: Baby Steps Are Still Steps: Faithfulness, Endurance & Spiritual Growth
Hey Guys! After a little break last week, I’m back with the team for a conversation about building endurance in the Christian faith through daily obedience, patience, and spiritual growth.Sanctification is a process, and so is building endurance. Using a lesson I learned from “ego lifting” in Pilates, we talk about why God may be more interested in our faithful reps than the amount of wei
EP 121: Joy in the Morning: How to Keep Fighting When Life Still Hurts
Hey guys! We're back this week with a fresh episode and Toni Collier is back on In Totality to share about season 2 of her Docuseries, Unshakeable Moxie!If you haven't seen season 1, it's a great time to catch up and tune into the series, co-hosted by Moriah Smallbobe, where these two women share the beauty of other women’s stories around the world, and how true hope is not just beli
EP 120: Beauty Through Sacrifice: Ace Harris on Faith, Music & Altar Aesthetics
Hey Guys! I'm so excited to share this conversation I had with Ace Harris on faith, creativity, sacrifice, and what it means to surrender everything to God.In this episode, Ace shares his journey from discovering music in the church, to working in the Christian music industry.And we touched on topics like the tension between art, commerce, and ministry, how beauty and creativity can point
EP 119: Is God Your Glory?: Surrender, Social Media & Hidden Obedience
Hey Guys! On this week's episode, I'm here with the team again, and you don't want to miss this conversation!Quick question: do you guys think Jordan should become a streamer? Let us know in the comments after you're done listening!We're talking through the temptations of living in a world where everything can become content, while still protecting the intimacy of our relationship with th
EP 118: Parenting in Today’s Culture: Truth + Love Without Fear w/ Laurie Krieg
In Totality Podcast is back this week with a powerful conversation with Laurie Krieg on sexuality, surrender, marriage, parenting, and the love of God.As parents, many of us feel anxious or unprepared when it comes to conversations around sexuality, puberty, pornography, identity, and culture. Laurie gives such practical wisdom on how to talk to our children with truth, grace, clarity, an
EP 117: Your Testimony Is Enough: Stop Comparing & Go Make Disciples
What’s up family?I’ve been thinking a lot about what it means to be faithful with anything that God has placed in our hands, especially when we may not always feel confident, qualified, or sure of where we fit, in the space of ministry.Sometimes we may look at other people’s gifts, platforms, ministries, or callings and wonder if what God is doing in us is enough. But the more I sit with
EP 116: Meditate on Scripture: How Philippians 4 Changed My Anxiety
What's up family? This week i'm back with a conversation on anxiety, surrender, and the peace of God.I’ve been going through Philippians 4 and what it means to bring everything to God in prayer: every request, every worry, every need, and every anxious thought. So often, we say we trust God, but our minds are still racing and our hearts are still carrying what He invited us to surrender.&
EP 115: Francis Chan: You Were Made to Enjoy God (Not Perform)
This week, I’m humbled and honored to bring you a conversation with someone whose ministry has made a huge impact in my walk recently— Pastor and Author Francis Chan. If you’ve been with me this season of In Totality, you know I’ve been taking my Patreon community through his latest book, Beloved, and this conversation is one that I've been praying for— and I cannot wait for you to hear i
EP 114: Recreated, Not Renovated: Do You Know Who You Are in Christ?
So many of us are living with an identity shaped by the world, our feelings, our achievements, our past, our pain, our personality, or what other people have said about us. But scripture gives us a different foundation. Our identity is not something we discover inside ourselves; it is something declared by God.In this episode, I'm here with the team talking through what it means to be cre
EP 113: Worship Beyond the Stage: Living a Lifestyle of True Worship (Romans 12)
This week I'm super excited for you guys to listen in on this episode! I'm joined by Trey Heflin, who you may be familiar with if you follow 2819 Church's worship team.This season has been anchored in John 15, where Jesus reminds us to remain in His love. In this episode, that invitation continues through a conversation about worship, surrender, obedience, and what it truly means to give
EP 112: Boundaries, Discernment & the Holy Spirit: Loving Without Losing Wisdom
Hey guys! This week, i'm back with the team for an unconventional episode where I answer some questions from my Patreon Village!We discuss topics of marriage, trusting God in seasons of singleness, dating in Christ with wisdom and intention, and how to love others from a place of intimacy with the Lord. We also unpack healthy boundaries, how to rely on community when dating, the voic
EP 111: His Steadfast Love Never Fails: Waiting Without Anxiety
In this weeks episode, I’m reflecting on what it means to truly rest in the steadfast love of God.So many of us are walking through seasons that feel uncertain, painful, and stretching. Maybe you’ve been trying to stay faithful, but if you’re honest, you’re tired. Tired of waiting. Tired of praying. Tired of not understanding what God is doing. In this conversation, I wanted to slow down
EP 110: Grief With Hope: When Loss Hits Out of Nowhere
This week, I share about the recent unexpected loss of one of my longest and dearest friends, and the ways this particular grief has reshaped my perspective.I talk about the tension of suffering and faith, how trials expose why we truly follow Christ, and why grief for the believer is never without hope. I reflect on scriptures like 2 Corinthians 1, 1 Peter 1, Matthew 5, and 1 Thessalonia
EP 109: God as the Theme (Not a Topic): Discipling Your Kids in Daily Life
Hey fam, we are back this week with a conversation that I think so many parents need.A major part of my life is being a mom, and in this episode I wanted to slow down and talk about what it really means to raise children in a home where God is not just a topic we bring up when life goes wrong, but the theme of the home itself.So often, parenting can become focused on behavior, structure,
EP 108: You Can’t Do Christianity Alone: Why Community Is Non-Negotiable
Hey guys! We are back this week with a conversation about something so many believers wrestle with: can you really follow Jesus without being deeply connected to His people?In this episode, we talk about why Christianity was never meant to be lived alone. In a culture that celebrates independence, self-protection, and doing faith on your own terms, it can be easy to believe that prayer, w
EP 107: Pause, Pray, Then Post: Christian Unity
This week, I’m back with the team to talk about the importance of pausing to pray and seek God's direction as Christians, before we publicly respond to things online, or create content for public consumption that dishonors others.We’re living in a time where everyone feels pressure to react quickly, share every opinion, and defend every point of view. But as believers, we are not called t
EP 106: Fix Your Gaze on Jesus: How to Stop Sinking in Fear & Doubt | In Totality with Megan Ashley
This week, I'm reflecting with the team on my experience witnessing Jackie and Jordan practice obedience during the Blameless concert weekend that took place in February. We're talking about what it means to fix our gaze on Jesus when fear, doubt, and uncertainty can cause a hesitation to obey. In Matthew 14, we see Peter walk on water only while his eyes are fixed on Jesus, but the
EP 105: Remain in My Love (John 15): The Secret to Joyful Obedience
In Totality Podcast is back for a season 3 return this week! This season is anchored in John 15, where Jesus says, “Remain in My love.” And so I want to slow down with you and allow scripture to call us back to something we forget so easily: joyful obedience doesn’t come from striving, it comes from abiding.So many of us are trying to follow God from a place of pressure, like we have
EP 104: 1 Thessalonians 5: Remember Who You Are (Children of Light)
This week, I’m sharing another special moment from the live podcast back in October, where I’m reading through 1 Thessalonians 5, and letting Scripture bring us back to what we forget most easily: who we are in Christ.This passage is such a steady reminder that we are children of light. We’re not called to live in fear, anxiety, or spiritual numbness, but to stay awake, anchored, and stre
EP 103: Best of Season 2: 2025 Recap
It’s been a full year of deep conversations, quiet revelations, and holy tension.In this special “Best of Season 2” episode of In Totality, we revisit the most powerful moments from 2025, the raw confessions, and Spirit-led wisdom that shaped us. From surrendering plans to embracing stillness, this recap walks through what God revealed in the waiting, the stretching, and the refining
EP 102: Laying Down Idols in the Hidden Places ft. Dinorah Peña
In this week’s episode of In Totality, I’m back with my girl Dinorah Peña for Part 2 of our conversation.We talk through the moments after the “yes”, when obedience is heavy, sanctification feels slow, and trusting God isn’t as simple as it sounds. We share about the struggle of delighting in the Lord, turning away from pride, and depending on the Holy Spirit during times of anxiousn
EP 101: Wrestling with Insecurity & Obedience ft. Dinorah Peña
In this week’s episode of In Totality, I’m joined once again by my girl Dinorah Peña, and we had a really great conversation about all the things!What started as a casual conversation turned to a Spirit-led dialogue on what it looks like to meditate on God's word and truly lean on the Holy Spirit, the weight of saying “yes” to God, and obedience.We talk through what it looks like to follo
EP 100: Sanctification Is Hard: The Process, the Pain & God’s Purpose [LIVE Episode]
In this week's episode we are LIVE for our 100th episode of In Totality! I honestly can't believe we've reached this far in our podcast journey, but it's a true testament of God's faithfulness when we obey and give Him a serious yes. I'm joined by my best friend, Jackie Hill Perry, and we have an open conversation about sanctification, and the very real struggle of becoming more like Chri
EP 99: Your Existence is Essential: Finding Your Purpose Through the Pain
In this week’s episode, I’m joined on the couch by Gloria Umanah for the very first time on In Totality, to share her story of survival, identity, and the war for her life.We unpack the seeds of trauma planted in childhood, the quiet despair masked by performance, and the miracle of choosing hope. Gloria opens up about her lifeversary, and how one whisper from God changed everything.
EP 98: Wholeness in the Waiting: What Mark 5 Teaches Us About Jesus’ Timing
In this week’s episode, I’m unpacking a powerful, dual-story moment in Scripture that has been ministering deeply to my heart—Jairus’ daughter and the woman with the issue of blood in Mark 5.We explore what it means to pursue Jesus in desperation, to press through discouragement, and to discover that He often gives us more than we were even asking for. I share how this passage has encoura
EP 97: The Bumpy Road to Better: ft. Tim Timberlake
In this week’s episode, I’m joined by my brother, pastor and author Tim Timberlake to dive into his newest book, The Bumpy Road to Better.We talk about what it really looks like to walk with God through pain, doubt, and disappointment, when faith feels exhausting and the process feels slow. Tim opens up about seasons of deep hardship, learning to lead through pain, and discovering the dif
EP 96: Living Beyond Offense: With Yana Jenay Conner
In this week’s episode, I’m joined by author and teacher Yana Jenay Conner, to get into her new book, Living Beyond Offense!Tune in to hear us unpack what it means to live beyond offense, to forgive without pretending it didn’t hurt, and to trust God enough to handle what justice looks like when we experience wrongdoings.Yana shares her heart behind her book, and we have an honest convers
EP 95: Sanctification Isn’t Instant: Trusting God’s Pace and Process
If you’ve been walking with In Totality for a while, then you know I’m passionate about talking through the raw parts of our faith journeys, the in-between spaces where trust feels tested and growth feels slow.In this week’s episode, we’re diving into the process of sanctification—that slow, beautiful, and sometimes frustrating journey of being shaped into Christ’s image.We talk about wha
EP 94: Faith in the Waiting: When God Feels Silent
Okay ya'll! I am so so excited about today's episode!If you've been tuned into In Totality for a while, then you know I LOVE the The Chosen series— and so I'm thrilled to share this week's episode with the creator of the show and his wife— Dallas and Amanda Jenkins!We dive right into what it truly means to find strength when you have none left to give and talk about the moments when your
EP 93: Faith Under Fire: When Trust Becomes a Test
In part two of this conversation with Pastor Philip Anthony Mitchell, we go even deeper into what it means to keep your faith steady when following God feels hard.We unpack what it looks like to stay rooted in truth when emotions run high, to surrender control when the outcome is unclear, and to believe that God’s still writing beauty from what feels broken.Pastor Philip shares powerful b
EP 92: Faith Under Fire: When Following God Gets Hard
I’m joined by Pastor Philip Anthony Mitchell for a powerful conversation about what it means to suffer well in seasons of warfare.In this episode, we unpack how God uses pain to refine our hearts, reveal hidden places of brokenness, and draw us closer to His presence when life feels heavy.We talk about how to discern what battles are worth fighting, how to stay silent when the Spirit says
EP 91: Choosing Grace Over Division
This week, I’m sitting down with Justin Giboney to have an honest conversation about what it means to choose grace in a world that thrives on outrage. Together, we unpack how believers can respond to offense with Christ-like wisdom, especially when tension, politics, and faith collide in public spaces.We talk about what it looks like to pause before reacting, how to discern
EP 90: Rebranding the Church: Unity and Purpose ft. Dr. Eric Mason
Hey ya'll! This week I'm continuing my conversation with Dr. Eric Mason to conclude our discussion around his new book, Rebranding the Church. We talked about the power of giving leaders in the church the opportunity to repent through conversation, and pursuing unity in a world where division is often on display.Dr. Mason shared why discernment is crucial in these last days, how to recogn
EP 89: Rebranding the Church: Living as Ambassadors ft. Dr. Eric Mason
In this episode of In Totality, I had the privilege of sitting down once again with Dr. Eric Mason as he shared insights from his upcoming book - Rebranding the Church. Together, we unpacked what it means to live as ambassadors of Christ in a society that's always watching.Dr. Mason shared his perspective about why the church needs to be re-presented to the world, how our daily lives can
EP 88: God Requires Everything From Us
At the Women Ignite Success Summit 2025 in Kingston, Jamaica, I was so honored to share what God had been doing in my life during that season. From the journey of motherhood to the deep wrestle of unanswered prayers, I’ve learned what it means to lay everything at His feet and allow Him to search my heart.In this message, I open up about surrender, obedience, forgiveness, and the miracle
EP 87: Special Episode - The Village Q&A
This week, I’m sitting down to answer questions from The Village fam about faith and friendships! I'm answering everything from learning how to love people well when they’re not walking with God, to discerning if it’s really the Lord speaking, or just our emotions.This conversation is honest, vulnerable, and rooted in scripture. We also talk about what it means to steward godly friendship
EP 86: Being Kept By Perfect Love
In this week’s episode I’m so honored to be joined by someone very special and like a big sister to me, Lisa Brunson! Lisa and I go way back, and every time we talk it’s like we never skipped a beat. This conversation is no different—We dive into her powerful testimony of walking through years of anxiety and panic attacks, what it meant to experience God as a keeping God, and how his perf
EP 85: Parenting - Replacing Anxiety with Urgency
In this week’s episode, I felt led to share from my heart about one of the greatest callings and challenges God has given me, parenting.With my kids starting a brand-new school year, I found myself wrestling with questions we all ask as parents: Have I done enough? Am I discipling them well? Am I pointing them to Jesus in the way I should? In the middle of that anxiety, God reminded me th
EP 84: Don't Try This Alone
In this week’s episode I’m joined by my girl, Toni Collier, you guys already know and love her!Every time Toni’s on the couch with me, there are lots of laughs, but we also dive deep into the kind of real, raw conversations that bring freedom. This time, we’re talking about her new book “Don’t Try This Alone” where she shares her journey to healing through community. We talked about findi
EP 83: Choosing The Good Portion
Hey Fam! This week’s episode is one I’ve been sitting with for a while, because it’s straight from something God has been working on in my own heart, learning to bring everything to His feet.If you’ve ever found yourself running around doing all the things for God but feeling distant from Him, you’re not alone. I’ve been there, serving, pouring out, checking every box, and still missing t
EP 82: The Gift of Godly Community
Hey Guys! This week’s episode is extra close to my heart because I’m joined by someone I know y’all are going to love hearing from — Jordan is on the couch with me! What started as just working together has turned into something so much deeper — she’s truly become family. Our story is one of grief, friendship, discipleship, and the kind of connection that only comes when God brings two pe
EP 81: Comfort Isn’t the Call
“Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me.” - Luke 9:23In this episode, I’m diving into something the Lord has been pressing on my heart: Jesus didn’t call us to comfort, he called us to carry a cross.I share a story that started off as a fun little birthday bike ride… and turned into a full-blown sermon from the Holy Spirit. What I
EP 80: When Your Faith Feels Faded - Inside Burnout & Spiritual Renewal
This week I sat down with Norris Johnson III and we talked about what it really looks like to serve God when you’re spiritually empty, and how the Acts 2:42 conference became a turning point for him, a moment where the Lord met him in the middle of burnout and reignited the fire he thought he’d lost.As we unpacked his journey, we dug deep into what it means to die to self and to truly wal
EP 79: A Heart Close to the Father
Hey fam! In this week's episode, I’m diving into one of the most meaningful parables to me, the story of the Prodigal Son.Lately, I’ve been studying Luke 15 and reading through The Prodigal God by Timothy Keller with my Village community on Patreon & the Lord has been showing me how easy is is to either run from Him or try to earn His love, and how both can lead us far from the Father
EP 78: True Worship
What if worship isn’t just what you sing… but how you live? In this week's episode I sat down with my dear friend and fellow podcaster, Pastor Ebenezer Endiryas, for a conversation that deeply challenged me, and I believe it’s going to do the same for you. We unpack what Romans 12 really means when it says to present your body as a living sacrifice. That’s not jus
EP 77: Unveiling the Hidden Heart (Part 2)
Welcome back fam! This week Jackie Hill Perry joins me again for part two of our podcast. In this episode we’re talking about Christian content creation, conviction, repentance, and what it looks like to stay faithful to God, even when the algorithm is loud. We also discuss why some content might be getting clicks but isn’t making disciples, the temptation to
EP 76: Unveiling the Hidden Heart
This week on In Totality, I’m joined by one of my best friends and someone I deeply admire - Jackie Hill Perry. This conversation is one of those that stays with you. We went deep into what it really means to surrender, not just in the big ways, but in the quiet, hidden corners of our hearts, letting God touch on the places we try to hide-- where pride, fear, or even self-protection
EP 75: The Danger of a Guardless Heart
This episode is one of the most honest ones I’ve shared. Over the past month, I’ve felt the weight of the Lord’s discipline, and not in a way that pushed me away, but in a way that pulled me back to truth.I was in a rut. I was complaining, easily offended, and frustrated with God,but what He showed me was deeper than my emotions. He showed me that I had stopped guarding my heart (Proverbs
EP 74: The Discipline of Discomfort
My friend, Hayley Mulenda & I sit down to unpack what God’s been teaching both of us-- discomfort is a discipline, and avoiding it might be the very thing holding us back from intimacy with him. Today, we live in a world where everything is designed for speed and convenience. Amazon delivers in hours, food shows up at our door, and even spirituality seems available at the cl
EP 73: The Strength of Being Weak
The past several weeks have been a lot! Multiple car accidents (yes, including a deer collision), parenting chaos and disappointments that hit me hard. I found myself frustrated, exhausted, and honestly asking God: “Why is this happening?”But in the middle of the mess, the Lord impressed something powerful on my heart:“I’m not trying to destroy you. I’m trying to weaken you.”If this
EP 72: God Always Heals
In this episode, I sit down with Brenna Blain for one of the most honest conversations I’ve had on the podcast. We talk about what it really looks like to follow Jesus while still battling mental illness, trauma, and temptation. Brenna shares her powerful story from growing up in church as a pastor’s kid, abuse, same-sex attraction, and deep seasons of depression. We talk about what it me
EP 71: A Mother's Prayer Part 2
In this continuation of last week’s episode, my mom, Ms. Yvette and I move past trials we’ve faced together and into the transformation we’ve witnessed. We talk about cultivating a lifestyle of prayer, learning to listen for God’s voice, and how true healing happens when we yield to His presence.Tune in to hear how the Lord has taught us both to walk in humility, steward our relationship
EP 70: A Mother's Prayer
In this deeply personal and long-awaited Mother’s Day episode of In Totality, I sit down with one of the most important people in my life - my mom. This conversation is raw, honest, and full of the kind of love only a mother and daughter can share. We open up about our journey together - how my mom came to know Jesus, how our relationship has evolved over the years, and the very
EP 69: Waiting Well: Purity Before the Promise Part 2
In this week’s episode of In Totality, I’m back with my dear friends, CD and Melody Fabien, for Part II of our powerful conversation on purity, obedience, and trusting God in the waiting. If Part I stirred something in your spirit, this next part goes even deeper.We’re talking about what it really looks like to walk out a set-apart relationship—one that honors God even when
EP 68: Waiting Well: Purity Before the Promise
When God writes your love story, it looks different from the world’s version — and it’s worth the wait.In today’s episode of In Totality, I sit down with two of my dear friends, a married couple whose very first kiss was at the altar on their wedding day. We talk about their individual journeys of salvation, the seasons of preparation God led them through, and the faith it took to trust H
EP 67: The Ache and the Anchor
When my son was diagnosed with autism at age two—and later with Fragile X syndrome—I entered a kind of grief I wasn’t prepared for. It wasn’t loud or dramatic. It was quiet, slow, and deeply sacred. It was the grief of letting go of the life I imagined and learning to embrace the one God was writing.In this deeply personal episode, I open up about the pain, surrender, and beauty that come
EP 66: This Walk Will Cost You Something
In this episode of In Totality, I’m talking about what it means to truly live as a sacrifice for God.As Christians, we love the idea of purpose, calling, and blessing, but what about surrender? What about the moments when obedience costs you relationships, opportunities, reputation—or comfort? Scripture tells us to offer our lives as living sacrifices, holy and pl
EP 65: Faith Reframed: Grace, Renewal, and the Journey with Carl Lentz
In this episode of In Totality, I had the pleasure of speaking with Carl Lentz for a vulnerable, honest, and meaningful conversation about grace, redemption, and what a renewed faith looks like.This is Carl’s first time on the podcast, and we didn’t hold back. We talked about the power of God’s correction, and the process of rebuilding faith, and what it means to live fully dependent on G
EP 64: Navigating Faith in Seasons of God's Presence and Silence
Have you ever felt on fire in your faith, only to wake up one day and feel like God is distant? I know I have. It can be confusing, discouraging, and even a little scary. But here’s what I’ve learned—these shifts aren’t random. They’re part of the faith journey.In this episode of In Totality, I’m diving into the spiritual cycles of consolation and desolation—those
EP 63: Marked by Fire: The Weight of Being a Living Sacrifice (Part 2)
In this week’s episode of In Totality, I’m back with my good friend, Preston Morrison, host of The Leader’s Cut podcast, for Part II of our conversation on walking the narrow path as a follower of Christ. If you thought Part I was powerful, you won’t want to miss this!We’re diving even deeper into what it means to fully live a life that reflects Christ—no matter the cost. We’ll talk about
EP 62: Marked by Fire: The Weight of Being a Living Sacrifice (Part 1)
In this week’s episode of In Totality, I’m joined by a very special guest, host of The Leader's Cut podcast, Preston Morrison! I’m so excited for you guys to listen in as we dive into what it really means to walk the narrow path as a follower of Christ. Choosing to live for God isn’t always easy — it requires our obedience, willingness to sacrifice, and a personal commitment to knowi
EP 61: God Exposed My Pride
In this episode of In Totality, I share how stepping away from podcasting exposed where my trust in the Lord actually was… and where my pride had been hiding. I had to confront the uncomfortable reality that I was leaning more on my own strength than on God’s strength.Through fasting and prayer, seeking His face daily, and surrendering to His way, I learned that faith isn’t just believing
EP 60: A Sacred Pause and Renewed Heart
Welcome back to In Totality! Have you ever found yourself so caught up in the busyness of life that your time with the Lord becomes more about what you need from Him rather than just truly centering Him? That’s where I found myself at the end of last year, and I knew I needed to step away. In this episode, I’m sharing why I took time off from social media and the podcast, what God reveale
Season 2 Trailer
After taking time away to rest and seek the Lord, I’m coming back with a renewed heart, deeper conviction, and fresh perspective. This season of In Totality is all about the seriousness of our relationship with God—fully surrendering, completely dependent, wholly devoted (Romans 12). It hasn’t been easy, but God has been refining me so that what I pour out is pure. I pray this season edif
EP 59: Best Of In Totality: Season 1
Join me, Megan Ashley As we gear up for a much-needed seasonal break, I wanted to leave you with something special—a Best Of episode showcasing the most impactful and encouraging moments from this season of In Totality.This year has been nothing short of phenomenal. We've had conversations that inspired, challenged, and uplifted us, featuring guests I deeply admire, love, and pray fo
EP 58: Season of Rest
What if recharging your spirit was as simple as stepping back?Join me, Megan Ashley As we prepare for a holiday break, I’m reflecting on the power of rest and a social media sabbatical—a step toward mental health and spiritual well-being. Through biblical teachings and Christ’s example, we explore the necessity of pause, reminding us that consistent podcasting since 2022 has only deepened
EP 57: Spiritual Drought
Join me, Megan Ashley, for a closer exploration of spiritual highs and lows, inspired by transformative experiences from the Acts 2:42 Conference. Together, we’ll reflect on the joy of God’s presence, the challenges of feeling distant, and how the enemy sows doubt about His love. My hope is to offer encouragement for those facing spiritual struggles as we approach our holiday breakWe’ll u
EP 56: Jars of Clay Pt 2 (Ft. Jackie Hill Perry)
*Trigger Warning:*This episode discusses sensitive topics,Please listen at your discretion and prioritize your well-being.Welcome back for Pt 2 Join me, Megan Ashley and my best friend, Jackie Hill Perry, As we share the journey of organizing a large-scale conference rooted in diversity and inclusivity. Inspired by the lack of representation at a past event, we felt called to create a spa
EP 55: Jars of Clay Pt 1 (Ft. Jackie Hill Perry)
What does it mean to find true freedom and balance in a world that constantly demands productivity? Join me, Megan Ashley and my best friend, Jackie Hill Perry, as we reflect on a whirlwind year that felt like a decade. Through laughter and exhaustion, we dive into the symbolic moments that defined our journey— Our conversation spans the highs and lows of the year, exploring the grace tha
EP 54: Daddy God (Ft. Toni Collier)
Join me, Megan Ashley for a heartfelt and humorous conversation with Toni Collier founder of Broken Crayons Still Color as we dive into her journey of faith, healing, and redemption. We begin with the origin of "Daddy God," a phrase that brings warmth and laughter to her relationship with God, especially for those who've felt the absence of a father figure. Toni's story explores
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