Dear Myself Podcast
This podcast is a personal space where the host, Pendomary, writes letters to herself exploring themes of insecurity, grief, and the struggle of not living the life she envisioned. Each episode navigates the journey of becoming and unbecoming, addressing feelings of being misunderstood and the process of healing and self-acceptance. It is a reflective show for anyone on a path of unlearning, learning, and building themselves up.
Episodes
EP 35: A Life, The Life I Never Talked About
There is a life people know, and a life you learn to live quietly. The parts you never explained, the things you carried, and the experiences that shaped you in ways people may never understand.This is a little piece of the life I never talked about. 🤍A Life, The Life I Never Talked About.🎙️ Dear Myself Podcast with Pendomary#DearMyselfPodcast #APersonalStory #HealingJourney #SelfDiscovery #Becomi
EP 34:GRIEF
A little pause. A lot of reflection.I’m coming back to Dear Myself with a reminder that I don’t need to have everything figured out.I’m still becoming. 🤍#DearMyselfPodcast #Pendomary #Becoming #Twenties #SelfReflection
Episode 33: Reflections.
I want a soft life, but I also want a big life. 🤍I want peace without shrinking my dreams.I want ambition without losing myself.I want success, but I also want to enjoy the life I’m building.Maybe I was never meant to choose between the two.🎙️ New episode of Dear Myself Podcast: I Want a Soft Life, But I Also Want a Big Life.#DearMyselfPodcast #SoftLife #BigDreams #Becoming #Pendomary
Ep 32: Things that I’m still figuring out
I don’t have everything figured out and maybe I’m not supposed to.I’m still figuring out who I am, what I want, love, friendship, money, my career, rest, and what it truly means to trust myself.And honestly? I’m learning to be okay with not having all the answers.Because maybe growing up isn’t about figuring everything out, Maybe it’s about learning, unlearning, changing, and becoming along the wa
EP 31: Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?Not who people told you to be. Not your achievements, your mistakes, your relationships, or the version of you that learned how to survive.Just… you.In this episode of Dear Myself, we talk about self-concept, the stories we inherited about ourselves, the identities we’ve outgrown, comparison, and what it means to finally pick up the pen and rewrite the story.Maybe you don’
EP 30:THINGS THAT I HAVE LEARNED THE HARD WAY IN MY EARLY TWENTIES🙂
Sometimes the hardest lessons don’t come from books they come from heartbreak, disappointment, mistakes, growth, and the quiet moments when life changes you forever.In this episode of Dear Myself Podcast, I’m sharing the lessons my twenties taught me the hard way. The ones I wish someone had told me sooner. The ones that shaped the woman I’m becoming.If you’re in your twenties, I hope this episode
EP 29: PEOPLE PLEASING - The Cost of Being Everything for Everyone else.
You were never meant to earn love by abandoning yourself.If saying “no” fills you with guilt…If you constantly put everyone else first…If you’ve forgotten what you need…This episode is for you.🎧 People Pleasing – The Cost of Being Everything for EveryoneListen now.#DearMyselfPodcast #Healing #PeoplePleasing #SelfWorth #Podcast
EP 28: THE ADOPTION STORY
This is my story, shared in the hope that someone else feels a little less alone.A letter to the version of me who wondered if being adopted made me any less worthy.It never did.If you’ve ever searched for belonging, this episode is for you.🎧 Now streaming on all major audio platforms.#DearMyselfPodcast #HealingJourney #Adoption #Belonging #SelfWorth
EP 27: THE ART OF NOT BEING OKAY
What does it cost you to say "I'm fine" when you aren't? In this special of Dear Myself, I take you on a journey through the mask of performance, the physical toll of suppression, and the radical freedom found in honesty. If you're tired of performing for the world, press play and exhale.
EP 26: THINGS THAT CHANGED ME FOREVER
Some changes arrive loudly. Most don’t.In this episode of Dear Myself, I’m taking you through seven things that permanently rewired something in me not highlight-reel moments, but the quiet, sometimes painful turning points that broke me open and rebuilt me differently.We talk about invisibility and what it costs to keep shrinking. About relationships that held up a mirror to patterns I didn’t kno
EP 25: THÉ INVISIBLE CHAPTERS FOR GROWTH🙂
There are chapters of your life that nobody sees. Not because they don’t matter but because they happen in the quiet. In the waiting rooms. In the seasons where everything is changing on the inside and nothing has caught up on the outside yet.This episode is for those chapters. In this special deep-dive episode, we explore the concept of "The Invisible Chapters",the quiet, unglamorous, a
EP 24:WHAT LONELINESS TAUGHT ME
Loneliness has a way of making us question our worth, our place in the world, and whether anyone truly sees us. But what if loneliness isn’t just something to survive? What if it’s one of life’s greatest teachers?In this deeply personal episode of Dear Myself, we explore the quiet lessons that loneliness can teach us about identity, healing, self-worth, faith, friendship, and becoming comfortable
EP 23: THE GRIEF OF UNMET EXPECTATIONS
There is a kind of grief that nobody talks about.The grief of the life you thought you would have by now.The relationship that never happened. The opportunity that slipped away. The timeline that didn’t unfold as planned. The version of yourself you expected to become.In this episode of Dear Myself, we’re exploring the quiet heartbreak of unmet expectations and learning how to make peace with the
EP 22: STAYING STEADY WHILE HOLDING SPACE FOR OUR LOVED ONES🙂
This episode is for the people who love deeply.The people who always show up.The listeners who carry everyone else while quietly falling apart themselvesThis week, we’re talking about supporting loved ones through mental health struggles without losing yourself in the processWe talk about:emotional exhaustion, caregiver burnout, healthy boundaries, feeling like a burden, learning to receive suppor
EP 21: THE WAY YOU TALK TO YOURSELF MATTERS🙂
Some of the harshest words we hear are the ones we say to ourselves.This week on 🎧 Dear Myself, we’re talking about the inner voice that criticizes, compares, shames, and exhausts us and how healing can begin when we choose gentleness instead.Inspired by Mental Health Awareness Month Week 3 and SAMHSA’s theme: “Words Matter and Words Can Heal,” this episode is a reminder that you do not need to ha
EP 20: TO THE CHILD YOU USED TO BE🙂🫂
You deserved support then. And you deserve it now. 🕊️Episode 20 of Dear Myself is for the child inside you the one who learned to be quiet, to be small, to carry everything alone.This week's SAMHSA theme (Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration) is "Early Support Matters: Recognizing Signs in Children and Youth." But what about those of us who didn't get that su
EP 19: THE TRUTH ABOUT MENTAL HEALTH:YOU ARE NOT BROKEN.
You don’t have to be falling apart to deserve care.In this episode of Dear Myself, we gently unpack the belief that something is “wrong” with you and begin to replace it with something more honest and compassionate.Mental health is not just about diagnoses. It’s about how you feel, how you cope, and how you carry your life every day. If you’ve been feeling overwhelmed, emotionally exhausted, or qu
EP 18: YOU ARE ALLOWED TO EXPRESS YOURSELF 🫵🏾✨🧩
You've been quiet for a long time. 🕊️Not because you had nothing to say. But because you didn't feel safe saying it.So you kept everything inside. You smiled when you wanted to scream. You said "I'm fine" when you were drowning.And now it's heavy.In this episode of Dear Myself, we talk about the weight of staying silent and what happens when you finally start letting the truth out.You don't have t
EP 17: UNDERSTANDING YOURSELF ON A DEEPER LEVEL
You've asked yourself this before: Why am I like this? 🕊️Why do you feel things so deeply? Why do small moments stay with you for days? Why does the world feel louder and heavier than it seems to for everyone else?In this episode of Dear Myself, we stop asking what's wrong with me? and start asking something softer.You're not broken. You're learning. And that is allowed.🎧 New episo
EP 16: ROMANTICIZING YOUR LIFE WITHOUT ESCAPING IT🙂.
You don't have to wait for life to be perfect to enjoy it. 🕊️In this episode of Dear Myself, we talk about the difference between romanticizing your life and escaping it and how to find peace right where you are, without abandoning your dreams.For the ones who've been postponing their joy. This is your permission slip to slow down.🎧 New episode now.
EP 15: JUST TRY🙂
Just try. It doesn't have to be good. It doesn't even have to work. Just try and try again.When was the last time you didn't do something because you were afraid it wouldn't be good enough? This episode is permission slip to try badly, fail openly, and try again.Includes a full "Dear Myself" letter on trying again as per usual.No highlight reels. Just imperfect movement.Perfectionism keeps us stuc
EP 14: COME BACK TO YOURSELF :THE SOFT RESET YOU NEED
Sometimes the exhaustion you feel… isn’t physical.It’s emotional. It’s mental. It’s the weight of everything you’ve been carrying quietly.In this episode of Dear Myself Podcast, we slow things down and come back to you.The version of you that’s been overwhelmed… overthinking… and trying to hold it all together.If you’ve been feeling tired without understanding why…If you’ve been questioning whethe
EP 13:EVOLVING INTO THE WOMAN YOU KEEP ON DREAMING ABOUT.✨
🎙️ Episode: Evolving Into the Woman You Keep Dreaming AboutWho is the woman you keep dreaming about? The confident, healed, intentional, and aligned version of yourself… she’s not a fantasy. She’s already within you. ✨In this episode of Dear Myself Podcast, we explore:How to meet the woman you dream aboutWhy you haven’t become her yetHabits that create alignment, growth, and confidenceHealing whil
EP 12: LOVERS AND FRIENDS💛- Navigating Adult Friendships
Navigating friendships in adulthood comes with growth, discomfort, and clarity. In this episode, we explore why friendships change, how to maintain them, and how to build meaningful, aligned connections.
EP 11: EVOLVING INTO HER (HONORING WOMEN AND HAPPY INTERNATIONAL WOMEN’S DAY)✨
Evolving isn’t always loud. Sometimes it happens quietly… in the decisions you start making differently. In this episode of Dear Myself Podcast, we talk about what it truly means to evolve into the woman you are becoming. The journey of growth is beautiful, but it can also be uncomfortable. It asks you to let go of old habits, old environments, and sometimes even people who only knew the previous
EP 10: KEEP IT POSITIVE ,SWEETIE 💛
Keep It Positive, Sweetie 💛In a world where complaining is normal and negativity spreads fast, choosing positivity can feel rebellious.This episode is not about pretending everything is perfect. It’s about protecting your energy, guarding your mindset, and choosing hope even when life feels heavy.We’re talking about:• The difference between positivity and denial• How negativity quietly becomes a p
EP 09: ASPIRE
We don’t talk enough about what it means to want more without feeling guilty for it.In this episode of Dear Myself Podcast, we’re unpacking what it truly means to aspire. Not from a place of pressure. Not from comparison. But from alignment.What happens when you outgrow your environment?When your dreams feel bigger than your current reality?When you secretly want more peace, more depth, more purpo
EP 08: A REALLY GOOD CRY
Sometimes strength looks like holding it together.And sometimes strength looks like letting it fall apart.In this episode of Dear Myself, we talk about the tears we postpone, the emotions we suppress, and why a real good cry can be the release we didn’t know we needed.If you’ve been “okay” for too long… this one is for you.Press play. Let it out. 🤍#DearMyselfPodcast #HealingJourney #EmotionalWelln
EP 07: TO MY SISTERS - VALENTINE’S EDITION
Valentine’s Day isn’t just about romance.It’s about the sisters who hold your heart together. The ones who see you when you’re tired, celebrate you when you forget to, and stay when life gets messy. Blond sisters. Chosen sisters. Galentines.This episode is a love letter to the women who’ve walked with you through growth, healing, laughter, and becoming.If you’ve ever been held by sisterhood, this
EP 6: LIFE IN THE MESSY IN BETWEEN
Life doesn’t always come together the way we expect. Most of the time, we’re living in the middle learning, unlearning, growing quietly, and figuring things out as we go. This episode is a conversation about life in the messy in between, where nothing feels finished but everything is forming.🎧 Life in The Messy In Between#DearMyselfPodcast #TheMessyInBetween #LifeInProgress #Becoming #LifeAsItIs
EP O5: LET’S TRY THIS AGAIN
Some days don’t go as planned.Some goals don’t get reached.Some nights end with disappointment and quiet self-doubt.But one unfinished day does not cancel your future.You’re not failing ,you’re becoming and unbecoming.This episode is a gentle reminder to breathe, give yourself grace, and begin again.🎙️ Let’s Try This AgainListen with an open heart.#LetsTryThisAgain #DearMyselfPodcast #StartingAgai
DEAR MYSELF LETTER
Dear Myself Letter on Choosing You Even When It Feels WrongThis is a 5-minute letter for anyone who feels guilty for resting, setting boundaries, or putting themselves first.In this episode, I speak to the part of you that learned to survive by over-giving and is now learning how to choose itself without shame.If choosing yourself feels uncomfortable, lonely, or confusing, this episode is here to
EP 04: WHEN ORDINARY DAYS BECOME MEMORIES
Some stories don’t entertain you,they remember you.This episode is inspired by Reply 1988 and When Life Gives You Tangerines 🍊Stories about ordinary days, quiet sacrifices, missed timing, and the kind of love that doesn’t always stay , but always matters.It’s slow.It’s nostalgic.It’s a gentle reminder that even unfinished stories are meaningful.Dear myself, you survived ordinary days and kept goin
EP 03 : LETTING GO BEFORE MIDNIGHT
This episode isn’t about rushing into a new year.It’s about realigning before it arrives.A reflection on letting go of the version of yourself you’ve outgrown, releasing what no longer belongs, and choosing what doesn’t cross into the next year.🎧 Episode 3: Letting Go Before MidnightNow live on all listening platforms.Carry this intention with you through the rest of the day.Midnight can wait.#Dea
EP 02 : BECOMING HER:THE VERSION OF ME I WAS ALWAYS AFRAID TO BE.
Episode 2 is a raw and unfiltered conversation about becoming the version of yourself you’ve always been afraid to step into.In this episode, I open up about insecurities, feeling behind in life, being misunderstood, wanting connection while needing space, and learning how to choose myself through discomfort and change.This isn’t about having it all together, it’s about being honest about where yo
EP 01 : STARTING OVER :THE MOMENT I REALIZED I NEEDED TO HEAL
Episode 1 is here ✨This is the moment everything changed for me ;the moment I finally admitted I wasn’t okay, and chose to start over.Healing didn’t begin with confidence.It began with honesty… and the courage to choose myself.If you’ve ever felt overwhelmed, unseen, or tired of pretending you’re fine… this episode is for you.Tap in, breathe, and let’s heal together. 🤍Dear myself… this is my new b
DEAR MYSELF : THIS IS WHERE I START
This is the moment right before everything starts; the shift you feel but can’t explain, the quiet breath before the story opens.The intro to Dear Myself Podcast with Pendomary is a small, honest glimpse into what’s coming: the healing, the confusion, the becoming, the unbecoming, and the parts of ourselves we’ve avoided for too long.It’s raw but soft.Minimal but emotional.Mysterious but real.Bold
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